Who the Halloween is Josh Duhamel?

The cakes' so pretty kan?

HANTARAN

PICTURES FROM THE PERTUNANGAN.

KAK SHA'S PERTUNANGAN.

cos I can't FACEBOOK em.

copy right kut, so yeah I'm postin' up here for everyone to see

& for my jakun cousins to pick

The manisan I had to hold.

It was 3 kgs. so berat ):

The lavish setting outside.Pretty pretty white tents.

Doesn't this just remind you of prom!

When I go for prom I want to go down these kinda stairs.

so berangan, no prom date how.

my allegedly claimed pelamin heheh

The Golden Girls.

Aunty Ju.

My inspirasis.

How can you not love her!

Holding the hantarans was hard work.

OUR ARMS WERE SHAKING!

So bersopan (;

Ours in purple, theirs in yellow.

Huh purple much to Kak Trinas delight and my distaste.

Kak Sha's getting MARRIED!

Salam-ing the mother in law.

I thought this was very significant.

Placing the ring on her finger.

The zoom on the new camera is amazing.

The blushing bride.

Meeting the in laws.

Carrying babyIris.

Such a surprise that baby Iris is so attacthed

to Abang Kudin.

Because she's afraid of Abang Ned.

Her name just goes with her face.

She's got BIG BIG EYES and beautiful lashes.

IRIS

I want my childrens' name to be significant too.

The Minister Daddy.

Daddy, daughter moment.

When I was younger I've always dreamed of my papa

walking me down the isle.

Until I found out, muslims don't walk down the isle.

Or say vows, or go to church.

Oh well but I still want that lifting of the veil.

Okay Sa, another 15 or so years.

I'm sorry, just couldn't resist.

Pink CHANEL.

OH COLE!

Her mummy looks like Alicia Silverstone.

No joke.

haha IKABOOBOO.

Is it because we're sucha big group that we always

look like we're the PUSSYCAT DOLLS JUNIOR.

so pwetty. I hope to have pwetty pwetty babies too!

Gosh sometimes I am so sick of your face la,Kak Ina (;

Familia

Mumsy&Kak Sha

The brats sans Ika

Sujakouture plus Ika

Immediate family members

Uncle Slaim,Trisa

(:

The entire family

Kak Beeee

PPG. yeah I don't get it either but Kak Trina called us that & it's stuck

No papparazi, no papparazi!!

The bouquets were actually Toks idea.
Pretty huh?

Kak Sha granted us permission to eat her gummies (:

How ironic.

Her future hudband is a dentist but he gives us candy!

Which were beautifully shapped into flowers.
& polished off within seconds.

Roses of two different kinds.

Kak Trina&I with Kak Bee &Aband Ned.

Kak Sha smile.

Butterflies?

But Tris and Tir look like Deejays.

"AYER AYER!"

Drama,drama,drama.

Apparently, we are so FULL OF IT.

(and ourselves)

Our lala shot. TRISA! ahaha

On account Halloween was the night before, we did the Thriller.hehe

I'm the DamselInDistress (GET IT!)

waiting for her knight in shining armour.

My favourite gambar,

OH girls I love you so.

Guys.....






I didn't tell you, but I'm ENGANGED!

MERISIK IN TWO DAYS

I finally figured out how to bluetooth stuff to the laptop (:

Self satisfaction!

Joyce THIS IS FOR YOU, because I remember some months back you had an icon of a pair of giraffes doing the SAME thing.

But that was ages ago.

Mummy,papa are so

FREAKING ANGRY over my phone bill,which I will not state the total amount here because I'm so very guaranteed somebody will pass out or something.

Please ya, after that bill I can't afford anyones medical bills.

Please papa,mummy forgive me ):

No more big big bills I promise or **** amount of text messages in a month.

But I would like to stand my ground,

(why so debate-ish?)

The fact that I WAS studying all I could and there was nothin' really more that I could accomplish.

One day, when we are older we will laugh about this right?

RIGHT?!

When I get my first pay cheque in which I promised to take Mummy for a Champagne Brunch.

So we laugh about it then okay?

Okay.

Yesterday,

followed Papa, mummy to Titas place.

Papa went to Uncle Senators house cos of some election UMNO thing against SEXY BEASTS dad.

Apparently it was a tie. But it's bad la, some complication.

They are on the same side, but different views.

What the fudge?

Can just stick to one ah?!

The whole worlds economy is facing inflation and politics still on the muka depan of the daily Surat Khabars.

Godfather also mentioned that Korea will go bankrupt.

(who also bought God daughter a new phone (: thank you!)

So I asked Papa, North or South?

Adik replied with a

"I also dunno but the communist one la for sure che,"

Amazing la.

POLITICS.

What do you expect no?

So at Titas after kiss here kiss there,

I settled to the back

well after staring at that thing which is called something I can't recall in THIS COLOUR for 4 minutes with my mouth wide open, cos it was so pretty!

There, that thing you know where they sit down during the Merisik?!

THAT ONE.

Which reminds me, I hope I can still fit into my grey kebaya dress.

Why do they trust me with the 3000g OF BUNGA HALWA I will never understand either.

hehe, 3000g sounds heavier than 3kgs.

Make me sound strong la abit since the boys claim that I can push 6 boys of a door.

You make me sound like the Hulk la guys, but you guys treated me as the baby of the pack last year!

What the problem is?

SnowWhite was already there so we were just waiting for Belle before our OWN meeting emenced.

BUT...

yes theres always a but.

SnowWhite & Belle forgot

(WHO THE HECK FORGETS TO EAT---REALLY!

I mean I FORGET my digits, birthdays my shoes but food!

You must be a special kinda stupid to forget)

to eat dinnerso they ate & I couldn't tahan so I scoffed down some chicken and Biskut Rokok, you know the LOVE LETTERS

In our joint effort to attempt to be very professional and organise everything very well...

We talked about SPONGE BOB AND GUSGUS & JACJAC & CINDERELLA.

I know, we are hopeless.

After waiting for the WEDDING meeting to end.

(after lots of shouts and screams too. YIKES!)

Got a ride back to Uncle Senators with AuntButterfly to their home.

Papa was still with Uncle so I did several rounds on the massage chair (Utter Bliss!)

And read a little.

Oh and talked about Ang&BradPitt with their bakers dozen of kiddos.

Sure Shiloh is cute.(tHOUGH I personally prefer Suri Cruise)

BUT I ABSOLUTELY ADORE MADDOX.

Sigh this is so sad.

After reading history for five times it will only stick in my head till the exam but after that (I)

FER-GEH-DUH-BOUT-IT.

But gossip just lingers in the somewhat empty compartments above in your brain.

I was thinking and thinking and thinking about it..

AND HAVE COME TO A CONCLUSION.

If you THINK ABOUT IT you'll forget.

BUT if you DON'T , you'll remember it!

Just think about it...

Or not.

Close your eyes and Ill kiss you cause

You know how everyone

has those songs from a band whose name you can never remember.

Or maybe never bothered to remember or deleted all the songs from their playlists.

*AHEM*

Then when you finally take a listen,you remember them all!

I'VE FINALLY FOUND THAT BAND FOR ME (:

E knows what I'm jabbering about.

Thanks so much (:

OH BTW.

OH MY GOSH RIGHT?

WOMANIZER,WOMANIZER (;

I miss you,TRINA

Goodnight.

I'm so tired.
Maybe I'm just getting lazy or perhaps I just
retire to my sheets A LITTLE too late nowadays.

Merisik in four days (:
I always hold the manisan!
Is God trying to hint that I'm sweet, why I knew that already.
HEHEHE.
Okay I'll stop.

I'm getting there, I can feel it

you know the rules,you know the game

Uncle Knight bought papa a new CANON Digital IXUS 980 IS for his birthday.
If Uncle Knight is my God father why don't I call him Godpa or something?
Never occurred to me why.
Anywho since my family is kinda incapable of operating a camera my paps says I get to hold it (:
Oh purrrtyy.
Not that I'm actually even any better than them but who cares :D
What a pretty new toy!

lontong, mmm yums



IKA baby


Tok the fly swatter,ahaha

God, Trisa.

The rests' on FACEBOOK.

Be a kepo check it out (:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=719987700&ref=name

That's not all that hurts.

I thought the buruises on my ankles were painful enough.

Every drop & trickle of water leaves me in mid-faint.
But after I peeled the plaster off, I think I'm going to leave it.
To air maybe?
I don't know if I should actually leave it risking possible infection.

Then I saw the picture.
I think I finally know which hurts more.

I think it's bleeding now.

I'm achey all over.
This goes to show how outta shape I am
Or maybe it's cos I fell too much?

OKAYY I NEEDA SHOWER FIRST!

Oh my FLAMIN' LAMBORGHINI!

WAIT A MINUTE!

When did my brother(the baby on the furthest right) start...

Growing up? ):
Baby, don't grow up so fast okay?
Che has no one else to cuddle.
No matter how annoying you may be.
A few days prior to PMR, we celebrated Aunty Maria's birthday (apparently undisclosed!) at Le Meridian in KL.
I didn't take many photos but the rest are in my phone. Yeahpp you guessed it when the new laptop comes.
But I DID however manage to snag several shots from Kak Trina! I forgot what the restaurant is called but it's the Mediteranian one since there was a belly dancer.
OH I think it's called Al-Nafour, or something.
Her tummy has given the SUJAKOUTURE inspiration to work hard, haha!


hehehe, Kak Beeee

I don't know why but the painting kinda reminds me of "The Last Supper", don't you think?
Kak Sara reminds me of a certain senior. Really.


This is part of the conversation that Abang Hat and Ika had.

"Ika look at the fountain, I'm sure you wanna swim in it?"
"I'm sure you do too Abang but I don't think you' could fit in there, it might collapse,"

Fiesty!
Ika is only 8 by the way. She's the brat at the extreme left in my first shot.


This was by Kak Trin.
I don't like my photograph here because you can see my frackin' panty line but I love my shoes&dress.
Basically the concept of the photo but the storng lighting kills it.
We were outside at the pool area, and at the pool area there was a bar.
Let's just SOME adults felt rather at home there.

The food was pretty good, I don't know why some people didn't agree!!
Maybe I'm just not picky.
After our meal, in between dessert, WE SKYPED Abang Nabil and Nafik in UK who were oggling the belly dancer.
Abang Nabil took the phrase,
"TAKE A PICTURE IT LASTS LONGER"
kinda seriously.
Don't get me started on the dancing, I've never seen the uhhh... MATURE age group so WILD.

I didn't stay for supper but Abang Ned was so open with his love for Kak B, aww (:

I would like to shoot my girl classmates who forgot to tell me that ALL OF YOU planned to not come and forgot to tell me.
Terukla all of you!!!

I would like to say Alhamdullilah for the Distinction I got for the University of New South Wales
Educational Assessment Australia
English Examination.
I honestly couldn't believe the distinction, not to mention the top 9 percent in Malaysia.
I remember after doing the exam I was crying in the car, thinking how tough it was!!
Alhamdullilah really.










he's my first mistake

woman,

Gosh Nick where on earth did you get that ahmayzing tee? :D
I ♥ you

Since nobody actually reads my blog anymore I think I'll have to wait until I actual get a loyal audience again.
Those are the cons of not updating your blog for sucha long time.
Anyway since PMR just got done an over with I'm gonna be super productive (pleaseplease?) because in Form Four n early holidays man.
This is the last year guys so make the most of it!!



Joey Mc Intire! GOSH :D
Summmerrrtime with the sujakouture!
NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK.

Last Sunday was Uncle Salims open house.
Seriously where did all the cute guys go?
Anyway Abang Man came after SUCH a long time.

"ABANG! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!! I'VE MISSED YOU,"

"Jual ikan kembung kat Pasar Taman Tun,"

Huh.So funny.

So the SUJAKOUTURE or Parade to some slept over at Kak Inas to celebrate freedom, except Qis cos she's havin' SPM just like Kak Ina's SEXY BEAST! hahaha (inside joke) sorry Faez.
Anywho we decided to celebrate by talking Abang Ned to take us to Genting or perhaps Redang, cos the Sujaks haven't had a Sujak holiday in sucha long time eversince Tok Bak passed away.
I think we all need a break in the midst of the preperation for Kak Sha's wedding cos everyones stressing like crazy.
For shizzo.
The other day the whole livig room, and her living room is BIG, was completely covered with wedding magazines.
We were practically encircled in a sea of Martha Stuarts and Ratu Seharis.
Pages and pages of dresses, cakes, decorations...
Plenty which I fell in love with, oh well I still have plenty years to go yes? (:
I have the photos in my phone,
& hopefuuly I'll update them next week when I get the next laptop,
cos it's got BLUETOOTH cos currently I don't know how to use the cable.
Spare me, I can't get this technology thing.
Anywho first we swam at Titaz and we were dancing in front of the windows where Abang Ned was playing with his XBOX or PS3 thinking he couldn't see.
I think he caught us on tape.
NOT FACEBOOK!
We took booty shots! & retarted underwater ones which will never go into print if I have my word for it.
After multiple road shots we walked across to K Ina's crib but we spotted an unsuspecting victim.
A late night jogger! Who was kinda cute!
We were high on junk food and coke, COCA COLA FOOL so I screamed

"BURN THAT!"

They were so embarassed they left me out on the road in the dripping wet in my bikini.
He turned waved and smiled & I ran for my life.

After our showers we watched Prom Night & Practical Magic.
HEY BOTH MOVIES START WITH "p" :D

Prom Night was so mediocre, but it was fun cos I have a bunch of losers who scream at stupid things and in the end everyone screams!
And I ate PRETZELS,yum.
The girls were convinced that the spooky psycho teacher of a killer was cute.
I think he kinda looks like a bad version of K FED, BUT CUTE GACK!

Practical Magic was funny but Hurin&I just kept singing the songs cos the soundtrack is really good.
The girls had to help me look for my iPod cos I can't sleep without it & I started hyperventilating.
So Tira threw a pillow at my head.
I FOUND SO MANY THINGS, my lost earings in Trisas drawers
my BAD HARE DAY tee,
two pairs of knickers (now how did that end up in her house?)
then Hurin found it in her handbag (:
Kak Ina and I had deep talk,ahhh felt so good to get some things off my chest with her.
Apparently when she was on the phone with her MOOMOO
I said "Dah la yang go to sleep, its enough"
I don't recall. Fuhreakky Deakky.

The next day we rushed to get dressed.
No really 5 girls,1 bathroom no matter how GINORMOUS & two mirrors are not sufficient especailly if you're us.
We actually resorted to climbing onto the table tops to get mirrors and light!
How we fit into the ESTIMA, yup that much of us I still don't know.
I kissed Rasy! that was a feat okay.

At Uncles place,
So the sound system was pretty boring, fulla Raya songs.
I know it's Raya but does anyone notice that Raya songs are very very depressing.
Really!
So we decided to PIMP THE MUSIC, gosh Ulin you're so lame
We practically got the whole crowd to standing ovations with our rendition of "Found someone"
Or mirrors cracking, whatever.
Abang Hat's frined Tim came.
During the fasting month Abang wanted to prank call this friend of his which repartedly is a bit of a Casanova.

So since Kak Ina said she cannot so her sexy voice (?) and Ti kept laughing the phone was dialling so they just shoved it to me.

him
me

"Hello?"
"Hello, is this Tim"
"Yes who is this"
"Tim my cousin doens't want you to keep calling anymore he finds it very disturbng & annoying"
"Hello, who is this?"
"Who do you think it is Tim?"
"Angela? Maria? Who is this"
"Angela? Maria? Tim how could you forget me? After all those nights!?"

At this point everyone is bursting to keep their laughter in so I give in and pass the phone to my cousin

"SAAAA, TIM SAYS HE'LL TUTOR YOU FOR FREE FOR MORAL SINCE YOU OBVIOSULY HAVE NONE,"

So I took the phone & said hey Tim I don't take moral.
Then he send Abang a text saying if he sees me he'll shove Rendang up my nose.
Well we shook hands that didn't happen thank goodness!

After eating ,eating and more eating.
You see my uncles open house is a BIG EVENT
He hires buggys from The Curve to ferry people up and down the roads around Taman Tun to get to their parking spaces.
So when the crowd was dying down we hoped on one with Abang Man & his pal.
And upon going uphill, it started slowing.

"Takde battery la dik"

NO BATTERY IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.
Hurin started panicking because she is wearing six inches of killer heels and she can't run.
Just as we were about to convince Aabng Man to piggy back us or push the buggy back,
we finally got to the top.
WE MADE IT !
So we did a victory dance upon reaching the house
Not a wise choice with the UMNO men still there.

Sooooooo does that mean I'm not gonna be a Puteri UMNO next year Uncle? (:

I put a spell on you.

I'm reading my old,old posts through the archives now.
How embarrassing.

OMG I USED TO USE THE WORD FABWESOME! (for fabulous and awesome I guess)

"Husband" come home, I miss you ): ♥
Curve with you and Kuah soon okay?
The photograph is old and ancient but it's okay.
I think you signing my shoe!, my books, my BAJU KURUNG KAIN & leaving me with several self memmorabilia is sufficient enough.

Stupid ANG MOH LANG, Prince Eric refuses to come online.
Yesterday he paid his phone bill, but since he's changing the plan he'll only be able to text probably this week.
(Your mummy knows alot more than you think!)

I want to thank Kak Inabooboo for introducing me ActivFast Panadols. They work miracle cures!
Skipped school today and went gym-ing with mummy.
The aunties there were convinced that I had a husband, no less a boyfriend.
I had to convince them I wasn't enganged.
They were joking right mum? I mean no ring see?
Do I look that old?
After convincing them that I was not going to make my mum a grandmother anytime soon...

"So how about a boyfriend? My son is seventeen..."

I don't want to play anymore.

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh & I rush to the start.

Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions.
Oh let's go back to the start.



If I could fix it, I'd fix it too

Kak Bee the school punk& Abang Ned the Djian/Samadian

Hahah!

Kak Bee you looked adorable.
I hope the tie and blazer fits Abang,pictures on facebook hopefully.


Oh Gosh!
I feel so free and light and jumpy,I want to bust into a song!
Me and Pella Bella were like counting down from 60 seconds.
Agonising but so worth.

Oh yeah in case anyone hasn't noticed, we kinda chickened out on our attempt to do a HSM
(once again Ash what the hell?)
We so should have la but you know theres SPM and were not coming back so nobodys gonna catch us.
But yeah, I missed my stupid "husband" and co. but we were just opposite each other waving and making faces at each other.
Prior and during the examinations.
We just can't live apart la, face it (:

But IBU & I hugged Pn Koh, aww teacher we've missed youuuu
I didn't see S cos she had to stay back for debate.

NOTE: I LOVE YOU S!

PMR CANDIDATES OUR JOURNEY DOES NOT END BUT STARTS HERE!
hoho
I already had no mood to study the night before but eh last paper.
So last night me and & S were on the phone and a friend of her called.
S you aren't exactly a soft spoken person so I heard the entire conversation, especially the part where you screamed the house down.

Netherless.
S (RHYMES!)
I'm so proud of you okay and you know I'll support you through all the upsies and downsies.
But we sacrifice things for the things we love ahem.
I know it's been a tough year, it has for me too.
But we believe in you, so you must too.
And if you're ever stressed think offffffff......
HAPPY THINGS
like me,Shaz,Mal
ME
ME ME!!
DID I MENTION ME?
you get the picture.
You can call me at 3 am & we'll just tear it out okay, cos I know we do that alot.
Maybe due to unforeseen forecasts, not so much but we'll strengthen it okay.

p.s I know you're going to "techno camp" tomm, I'll miss you! RMB massages and breakfasts on Monday!

Oh yes funny thing.
YESTERDAY WAS THE SCARIEST/FUNNIEST PHONE CALL EVER.
I was re enacting a scene, a fake one with Abang Bang Bang and suddenly I heard a click
Thinking it was my maid cos she wasnted to phone home
(heheh ET PHONE HOME!)
I just ignored it la.
THEN AFTTER A WEIRD 8 SECOND PAUSE, I counted.
I heard "Wan Muhammad Kamal"
My mind just went blank, I wanted to swear but I wanted to laugh giggle and cry at the same time.
So I placed it on the bed and started covering the mouth piece with pillows.
I coulda been a red indian for the night cause I was jumping up ad down saying OH SHIT SHIT !
& my head got hit on the lampu perhiasan (hah LIVING SKILLS)
and when I finally summed up the courage to check for sounds of voices.
All I got was...
beeep...beepp..beeep

I thought omg SOMEBODYS IN DEEEEEEEEEEEEP COCONUTS!
& S JUST LAUGHED EVERYTIME I TRIED TO TELL HER.

But phew, after some apparent master plan worked out, all wells ends well.
BUT the fact that she's a mummy

*FINALLY breaks into song*

"I THINK THAT SHE KNOOOOOWSSS... I THINK THAT SHE KNOWS OH OHSSSS"

feels so right to be blogging.












x

The most spontaneous thing occured today
I won't ever forget it.
I turned and ran as fast as I could
But I felt your eyes.
Do I regret it.
If it makes my cheeks turn bright pink?
Hmmm we'll see (:

You can get whatever youuuuu liiiiikeeeeeeee....

Oh today is the second last day of PMR!
WHICH MEANNSSSSSSSSSSSSS (((:


TOMM IS THE LAST DAYYYYY AHHHHHHHH!

TO ALL PMR STUDENTS WHO ARE READING THIS,
PLEASE BRING THAT RATTY OLD PMR TIME TABLE AND MEET IN THE CANTEEN.

We'll walk out together arm in arm and do a HSM!
(WHATEVER RY I DON'T CARE IF YOU HATE IT)
Ash reckons we should coreograph a dance and song cos it's everyones secret wish to be in HSM.
HAHAH
Bring your cameras and set freeee!

I know. This is just PMR and we're being so dramatic
Just wait till SPM.

OH TO THE WELL.
anywho ha hey I'm off to become a geographical extrodinare!!!!
Uhhhhuhhhh.

oh oh oh!
I have a dream to get back my Daddy's Daetomaso or whatever you call it.

"Kak Sha esok got dodol riiiighhhhhtt?"

Hi everyone!
Okay the reason for the lack of posts comes in two reasons:-

a)
my schtupid laptop says that a hard disk is missing kut so everything is either gone or temporarily unavailable.
I do hope that it's just temp unavailable cos uhhmmm lets put it this way
PRACTICALLY 3 YEARS OF LIFE DOWN THE DRAIN.
Compilated in photographs vids (OMG RMB THE ENG LIT PROJECT GUYS? HAHAH) and songs.
So this affects my iPod.
And RebelHelloKitty hehe! has given me three consecutive eps of GossipGirl left unwatched.
The PAIN.

b)
Then PMR. AHHH Raya is esok so I don't want to spoil the mood okay ):

I'm in my Aunt's house typing on her oh so cute miniature SONY laptop but its still kinda hard.
But it's Raya must not be ungrateful!

Bulan Puasa may be over but the feeling is forever etched in heart.
I know you guys are thinking
"Daena has changed!"
Uhhhh abit la. This year I've been much holier 0:)

Kay you guys can stop laughing.

Really la.
Thanks to my ustazah who woke me up several times during puasa month to sembahyang hajat malam malam :) cos our "alarm clack" selalu "ROSAK"
hmmm (:

But I'm also happy cos I actually only had my period for I think two days this month.
The doctor said it was stress hormones (hahahaah PMR) and he said it was due to weight loss

:DDDD

I lost close to 7 kilos this month.The baju raya I tempah-ed the tailors had to alter so much (:
Only 4 more kilos to my goal weight!

this year no raya mood la.
Next year,insya-Allah (see I told you I'm holier!)
I'm going to follow "alarm clock" to his kampung cos I want to play with the cows
But he said no cows but got PS3 LCD tvs and five year olds on coke.



I AM SO TOTALLY THERE!


OH WE CAN HELP ARRANGE THE BUNGA AND THE COOKIES (:
YAY OMG DODOL.

LOVE!

You think you're chocolate but you're chewing gum!

Oh Gosh.
Dillemmmmmaaaaaaaa.

Perth?
.
.
.
OR


Bali???

Either way this year it'll be at the beach.Awesome (:
Which means jeng jeng jeng.....
navel piercing :D

yeah booboo I know you want to see but bulan puasa la.
Ohkay actually I just haven't took a picture la so heh.
It's emerald.

It's fasting month as ya'll know and surprsingly with all the yummo food,
the scales actually dropped 3 KGS.
In a week!
Is this even humanly possible, or healthy?
Whatever,I like it!
Shit Ika just came out with a bag of Famous Amos cookies!

time for terawih bye!!

the first day

it's seven. Half an hour to breaking of fast. The iPod is now temporarily serving as my ticket to the World Wide Web. Today was rather good. Eventhough it's only the first day(only 29 more days!!) I think I'm doing okay. Urgh RAya is just around the corner (that means PMR too) & I'm no where near ready. Clothes wise heh. It's fastin month. And hopefully this will be my most fulfillingbyear yet. Yeah right HOPEFULLY. So let's all do our part this holy month and be charitable and tighten our relationship and ties with God,friends and family. Amin to the yo.

I have never felt the gash so deep before.

"Man this is wrong change is so mummy won't scold you anymore,"

I THOUGHT I was doing something good, something worth doing.
I told him which answers were wrong and that he left out 11 PAGES OF WORK.
If mummy saw that she'd go ballistic,go furious!

I saw the marks on his arm
I felt something heavy in my heart.

"Man you want some aloe vera gel on the marks,"
As non chalantly as ever he coolly replies with a shrug and a simple "No thanks"

I try to give in when and can. In fact I've never been THIS nice in years.
But the words he used were like salt to fresh wounds.
A slow motion of a blunt knife into your skin.
You FEEL it slowly.
Maybe I'm such a pushover that I listen to every word he says and I believe him because I love him.
I do tell him,everyday almost that I love him.
Does he reply?
Yes he does, when he wants something from me.

It's an important year for him.
His first public examination, just a few weeks a way.
Is it his subconcious who refuses to listen to take charge and tell himself,
IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP.

It may seem like well what does his first public exam mean to him, it is but a tiny mark.
But a tiny mark can ruin the whole journey.
I fear for the future. Evidently his as well but...
is there justice in feeling so bad from doing so good?

I am brave enough to sware that I did not scream at him or shout infedilities to make him abide.
(He did not abide in fact)
The harshest thing I said was probably
"I'm so dissapointed in you,"

It is easy to not believe a stranger you roll your eyes at a stranger.
But well blood does this to you, you can't help but be at your most vulnerable.
How can I not?
I believe every word that leaves his tongue.
From the way I look to the way I am.
It's easy to close your ears to a stranger.
But not if their family..




I take two steps to the mirror.
I've never been so disappointed with him.
But I recall the sour words and wonder should I be disappointed in myself too?

curiousities of a 9 year old

Okay let me get this straight.

My seemingly very curious cousins asked:

"Kak Maris does it get hurt to be punched in the boobs?"




Not as much as it hurts getting kicked in the nards , love!

JO HAS GUITAR HERO. LIKE HOMG

Prepared to have unwelcomed visitors Jo!
Just finished a short conv with Asheley Washeley.
Hahahahah Tersesat face with Ben10 BOYFRIEND ehehe.
I love her sisters dress, so pretty.
The theme is so clever, East meets West.
I've been on the site for about 45 minutes already,I LOVE THE SONG (:
I think Ash thinks I'm like a friggin' stalker.
No difference in like 8 years eyh Wong?

I promised myself not to eat so much so I can squeeze into the stupid dress.
But as usual my inner animal took over me.
Now no thanks to my ravenous hunger pangs and instant noodles, I feeeeeel the bloat big time.
And I feeel like eating cake.
There goes the piercing

Okay so it's been weeks since I've said I'm going to get 'it' pierced but..
Mum thinks I should wait and see the Russian Lady at Borneo Lady cos it's apparently better.
Next week okay mummy, oh and no listening to the cat.

The thing about weddings is everytime I attend one or look at pictures...
I want to get married.
I knowwwww.
But the scary part is sometimes I go to wedding dress sites and oggle and look at all the wedding photos and imagine where mine(Malay+Chinese+Indian wedding and one at the beach) will be who will the designer of my dress(VERA WANG) or how my hair and make up will be bla bla bla.
Which is why boys and girls who have gone through my long enduring hours of me yabbering on about prom.
I always think prom is like a mini wedding.

Ohkay I'm so not getting a prom date forever ever ever .

Oh the colour of my dress.
Guess (;

It's up and running babe!

Awesome, the wireless is totally back on track.

Had a good talk with soph last night. We haven't had one of those in.... months.
Did you study Phie? hehe

Had a mini test in History today, which totally sucked half the things I studied didn't even come out. And trials are about 3 weeks away.
C'mon everyone panic with me!

Tomorrow is the day of truth.
Gulp that's right the day we choose our streams.
I hope everyone makes the right choice.
Just choose the stream that you want not what everyone else wants you to.
But theres is a good side of tomorrow.
No Life Skills(KH)
Mad awesome coconuts.

We had a spot check today and yeah I feel so guilty about what I did.
While none of my things got confiscated
(I just have good chi haha! or maybe good hiding places)
I did cause someones cologne to be
I'm sorry K I promise to get it back otherwise I'll get a replacement, honest.
But while some of us frantically hid our belongings, we've also got a few ironic cases.

You see Affiq brought his phone but it didn't get confiscated.

"Affiq, where did you hide your phone?"

"I just put it in my back pocket."

Thats it the next time I bring my phone to school, to Affiqs back pocket it goes.

"... AND AT THE BACK THEY'RE MAKING OUT!"

Joyce (: omg it's so weird la. heh heh.

The guy just finished with the computer.
I pray no more PMS-ish dial up. Can't wait for the wireless to come home.
Today was so so.
Started of with a motivational speak by Puan Mary Ann.
I think I'll join Kerjaya next year, I think I'd settle as a good counseller (But maybe they'll just listen to my problems)
BM was so much fun.
Proves that united we stand divided we fall really is true eyh?
In her face.

I can't believe we have to choose our streams already, it's so soon.

bubblegum pink?

Audrey Hepburn
tak jadi

I was lazy to put on my REAL LBD
(the prom party one guys,RMB!?)
And I wasn't drinking a chai latte so...

RYAN HIGA

omg!



SANDRA I LOVE YOU COS YOU LOVE NIGAHIGA TOOOO :D

OMG if my brother reads this he'll tease me for life.

I wipe my hands on your jeans, cos they're more distressed

I hope that one day, you will let me read that piece of paper (:
But I hope one day he'll have the courage to tell me.

Dynamitez, today (:
Well practically since it's already 12.30.

Good Luck girls I love you!
JOYCE DUMB BIATCH I MADE YOU A CARD AND YOU DIDN'T COME TO SCHOOL GRRR!
Sunday heheh I janji (;

OC tersesat!

Todays Career Day was suprisingly really productive.
Mummy doesn't want me to leave. Neither does Coop but Coops just Coop.
Lunch was fun and Kheng I don't know what I'd do without my "husband"

The "sexy beast" at the furtthest left.
You ARE smart if you use your brains.
GOLD FISH AND TIGER CUBS! awesome possum!

The piercing thing could happen tomorrow well moms said NO another day but hey I've got plenty a time to turn her around (;
Otherwise a next week.

And todays totally rocked bacause: NO KH HOMG!

Simple,KATE PERRY

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be?
"HELLLLLOOOOO DEARRRRRRR! I'm from VOUGE and I'd like to ask you to do a cover spread for us and then attend a Victorias Secret Fashion Show" (:

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
If anyone has actually read that emo emo post, yeah the uncle does it :/

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Definitely a talker but I'm an awesome listener, trust me .

4. Do you take compliments well?
If it's not backhanded, yes but extremely shyly.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
Can't even if my life depended on it. Es is so good at it,I stare in awe at her all the time.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
Totally. I have this book and I know how to signal for help. you make letters or signs in the sand the
helicopters/planes above will understand it.

7. Do you like to ride horses?
I'm the closest thing to the horse whisperer. JOKE but I love horse rides.

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Of course. Me, Kak Trin, Tris and Tira in Kak Sha's princess bed/PRINCESS TENT or tiras living room.

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
Who can kiss the most boys. hahah no. Okay was probably make believe. Especially pretending to be Mermaid
Princesses when we swam. Remember guys (:

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
"What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down" KARMA will bite you in the bite.

11. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Anyone who wouldn't is very shallow.

12. Do any songs make you cry?
YES! Tears in Heaven(ERIC CLAPTON),Blind (LIFEHOUSE),Wasteland(AUGUSTANA)How to Save a Life(THE
FRAY) This is probably just a fraction, I sware.

13. Are you continuing your education?
Yes. Although I plan to venture outside my chosen path (law) I still think getting higher education(degree) is very
important. You depend on yourself.

14. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
BB Gun and Laser Gun. BUT Es and I wanna try the real ones, yeah?

15. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
UHHHHHHH. JONAPHIARY necklace, DaeRy journal, photographs,diary.
If possible my books and sentimental items. LUTONG the bear :)

16. How often do you read books?
Everyday. Sometimes when I'm not supposed to.

17. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
I try not to dwell on the past but you know you can't help it. Future yes. Present hmmm I don't believe many on us
focus on the present. always the future and past.

18. What is your favorite children's book?
Peter&Janes.Enid Blytons. Dr Suess'. Disney Princesses.

19. What colour are your eyes?
A dark sombre brown.

20. Where is your dream house located?
On the beach,definitely the beach.

21. Have you tried sushi?
Where have you been? It's scrumptious.

22. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Have I ever. SUJAKOUTURE (; & Cyrenz

23. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
One time, I dreamt I was naked in a garden of olive trees. Very Adam and Eve-esque but olives not apples.

24. When was the last time you were at Church?
Easter with "Daddy"

25. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
Atria.

26. What was your favorite job?
Santa Rina-ing with Sambo. So much has changed Sam :/ it's not even funny

27. Do you like mustard?
The French kind on hotdogs. yum.

28. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep.

29. Do you look like your mom or dad?
My papa. Everyone says I'm my daddys lil princess (:

30. How long does it take you in the shower?
Depends. If I'm going to wash my hair, condition, mask my face, scrub and exfoliate and shave my legs uhhhhh.
3o minutes give or take.

31. Can you do splits?
The front right one yeah.

32. What movie do you want to see right now?
TWILIGHT! HOMG! oh HSM 3 If it's reruns Spiderman 1,2,3 AND Breakfast Club&Pretty in Pink

33. If you could fast forward your life, would you?
Yes and No.

34. What did you do for New Year's?
The most recent? I was on a plane from US. I shouted HAPPY NEW YEARS I got a few shushes and Tira didn't hear
cos she was iPoding. Urgh.

35. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
No, but I watched it behind my palms the first time. More of the music parts hehe.

37. Do you own a camera phone?
The MOTOROLA V8 thing.

38. Do you have an "ex box" with pics and letters from past lovers?
No. They're scattered in pictures, letters, momentos all over the room. Just the way I like it.

39. Was your mom a cheerleader?
Yes. She said it wasn't very "hardcore" but she was.

40. What's the last letter of your middle name?
If it's Marissa uuhhhhhhhhhh 'A'

41. Do you like your middle name?
Yes, very much thank you.

42. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
These past few nights,less and less.

43. Do you like Care Bears?
YES! I loved the show,movies ,memoribillia EVERYTHING!

44. What do you buy at the movies?
Mineral water. sometimes salty popcorn or chips. or gummies yum!

45. Do you know how to play poker?
UHHHHHHH DOES MAHJONG COUNT? I forgot how to play black jack . Interpetatz.

46. Do you wear your seatbelt?
Yes, most of the time.

47. What do you wear to sleep?
Whatevers clean. mostly shirts and shorts. BUT i do have this skimpy thing that...

48. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
This is my hometown. KL. Practically everything big in Msia happens here anyway so yup.

49. How many meals do you eat a day?
Normally 3 but it's inconsistent. Don't tell my mummmy!

50. Is your tongue pierced?
No but I want to. Like Kak Jehans!

51. Do you like funny or serious people better?
Varries from situation.

52. Ever been to L.A.?
YES! Twice (: I love

53. Did you eat a cookie today?
Does that chewy bar count. I shared a baked apple with Mark and Kenzo.

54. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
Uh... soooooo... how you doin'?

55. Do you hate chocolate?
Are.You.Mentally.Disporpotinate?

56. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
Mum:DID YOU TAKE MY CLOTHES, MAKE UP, SHOES ETC, DI YOU TAKE YOUR MEDS ETC ETC
Dad: DID YOU CHARGE MY IPOD?
BOTH:studies, small incohorent matters

57. Are you a gullible person?
No, I don't believe so.

58. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
R-E-S-P-E-C-T! I am woman hear me roar!

59. If you could have any job what would it be?
A model/actress. There I said it. Otherwise a lawyer (TONY PUAH & DERRICK (;) JOURNALIST OR IN PUBLIC
RELATIONS IN FASHION LIKE ABANG H!

60. Are you easy to get along with?
Yes. I'm pretty chill. And hyper. But I'm nice seriosuly.

61. What is your favourite time of day?
NIGHT. It's sexy and I'm kinda nocturnal. bUt sometimes dayyyyy. OH I'M SO FICKLE!

I tag:
I was THIS BORED. I took this from NINA,thanks love.
TASH (if u read)
CAY
ARIFF
MENG LEONG?
KAK TRINNAAAA

To whoever may concern

Today was a big mistake.
A huge mistake.
But how can you say that you did not judge us?
If it was solely between you and him why didn't you talk to us?
Yes it may be on a sensitive basis but I think we all did the same therefore you shouldn't only get angry at one of us.
If you weren't okay with it why didn't you tell us before we did it and yeah we did realise, after what had already happened, what happened was wrong.
It was(is) a mistake and we won't repeat it but theres no use on hanging on the thread of the past.
I understand your anger and disappointment but the fact that you are willing to lose respect for us after one thing?
Do you think we are genuinely bad people?
Are we after all this time do you really think we are bad people?
Did we kill anyone and hit anyone?
Would you dare judge us morally after one thing?
He did not tell me what you refer to as "a whole lot of crap", what you have done in the past he says.
He wouldn't tell me because he respects you still as a friend.
I don't know what you did but as I quote, "He has done a lot worse"
I'm not about to judge you or go "HAH IN YOURRRR FACE!" because I feel that we can solve this problem entirely on a mature basis.
I may not be Mother Theresa but I honestly feel that we aren't bad people though I do admit
WHAT WE DID WAS A BAD MISTAKE.
I just thought you of all people would the most understanding.
I don't think theres a lot to say just a lot to be done.
We have to prove to you that we are good people but you have to lose the scrutinizing and more of forgiving.
I don't expect and hug and kiss the next day but I hope many years of friendship won't go down like this.
I'm thankful that you cared enough to point out our mistakes, if you hadn't we'd probably repeat it, so in a way thank you.
I have done many wrong things in the past so maybe this is my wake up call.
I hope that in time you will learn to forgive but not to forget and we will learn not repeat mistakes.
The "sensitive issue" should not be brought in and I don't think you can tell us to "butt out".
Sir we'd just like to repair this broken past and start on a new one.

I *RECYCLE* Al Gore

OMG can say cute?

do your part, peace out

Heidi Montag should shut up. Really.

I just watched a couple of Heidi Montag video clips.
HAHAHAHAHA!
And ya'll thought Paris Hilton was dumb. I told you she's smart.
Miss Heidi on the other hand.
I think she's a better slut than a singer.
Leave the designing to Lauren sweetheart!
Now Conrad has some mean shit.