Prestigious&Privileged: so I start a fight cos I need to feel something

It almost feels alien to blog.
This blog is nearly, or already?, three years old but sometimes..
Typing just doesn't give you the same ol' feel as the grip of the pen in your fingers as you embed the paper in front of you with ink.

At some point in life, we all have had, still have or will have a diary.
Although I still have one now, I do admit that I do not pen down as religiously as I used to much to my dissmay.
I WILL.SOON.SOON.SOON.
But anyway,I got my first diary at the age of 5 from.....
THIS IS SO FUNNY..

ABANG Ned,
Yeah Prince E, THE ABANG M6!
THIS IS FUNNY BECAUSE, OKAY YOU WILL HAVE TO SEEHIM FOR YOURSELVES.
But clearly he is not one to be in to writing,seriously.
No seriously.
Methinks if you are out driving (racing), socialising(partying) & being photographed by MALAYSIAN TATLER no less, one would have better things to do.
Unless it's a hobby of course but I assure you.
IT'S NOT FOR HIM.

but anyway moving on,
I remember everyday, in hopes to improve my English skills
(it worked, I think?)
mummy used to make me write in the diary about whatever had happened throughout theday.

SO a normal post would be like....

DEAR DAIRY

Today I went to school and played hide and seek with Sofia an Baizura at the play ground.
It was hot. So Teacher Madelene gave us some cold orange jus.
My casen, Atira come to school late again. She fell asleep during Maths time and Teacher Madelen wake her up for break time.
Today we went swimming too.

LOVE MARISSA.

-
I used to spell DIARY as DAIRY until my 'sister' SAMBO pointed it out to me.
AND I used to say MATHS time, not MATH.
JUS, juice haha!

And after sometime, mummy had never managed to dissuade me from writing in my diary.
Even at night after mummy tucked me in, I'd go to the toilet and write.
I was addicted but I loved reading my previous pen downs.
It was like a personal story book I wrote for myself.
Maybe that's what led me to my love for reading & writing.
I've never looked back (:

I can't find my old old old diary but I found a recent one form Grade Six.
I was in SKTM at that time, having moved from Sri Inai.
And eventhough I had only been in SKTM for a mere 3& a half years, I felt more at home than I ever did.
I was...
happy or maybe content.

I was in the first class from standard 4 to 6, as those were the years were streaming was introduced.
So I was with people I was familiar with.
In fact.
I think most of us who were in the first class stayed there till the very end.

I think why I was happy was because I was comfortable there and everyone was so united.
As I flip through the cloured pages of my youth,
I see countless 'FAMILY TREES'.
I think we had like 6 or 7 till we were finally satisfied.

I REMEMBER!
AH POH, Li Tng and Kien Hou, were the grandparents on one side.
And Stefan and I THINK Esther or Marion was the other pair.

OH YA at that time, we were all going through a super awkward adolescent period so NO ONE was hot, so Stefan wasn't hot yet otherwise I would totally VOLUNTEER to be the wife, so to speak.

HEH STEF.

Although I CLEARLY remember that ESFERN TAN SHIN VERN, was always so freaking pretty!
Maybe she was the odd one out la. Pretty since..ever?
oh yes and NICOLE CHIN YIN LING AND MELISSA TAN JIA GIE.
Oh and Sumitra,Sofia&Cass.
For guys I htink I HAD the biggest crush of QUAY JIAN WEN.
HEHE!
OH GOD I remember he was the first guy I had ever gone all emotional about.
There was once where he told me that he USED TO ): like me and I..
threw my phone on the floor.

First I was shit shit shit omg so malu but happy heheheh
THEN
OMG THAT'S MY PHONE MUMMYS GONNA KILL ME& he can't text me how!?

But after re inserting the SIM card, it starting FUNCTIONING again!!!!
I can tell you I fell into sweet slumber that night
*so malu*

Oh jian wen (:

I had many crushes okay, some really weird ones too!
(heh ask anyone from 6M 05, they understand my condition)
the ones i can remember are...

ARIFF SUFFIAN ZAINAL ABIDIN
heh I know,NICOLE REMEMBER HE TEXTED YOU TO TEXT ME THAT HE WAS ASLEEP.
Then I asked you why can't he text me himself then you were like
"HUH dunno la he"

AZRAEI *ohmalumalumalu*
I think ASH should know why.
I busted out his teeth in Grade 2.

JUSTIN LEONG
ADRIAN KHOO KAH WEI

At least those are the ones I recall being pretty/hot since...ever?
Because I am looking at our really embarrassing GRADE FOUR DANCE WITH DINIE ZIKRI
(HOHO GUYS RMB? & yes I spilled coke in Es' place. i always spill drinks at her place la it's a curse)
The one where we had to BEG WONG JYEN YIEE to wear a sleeveless top, remember JO!
AND TIE HEAR HAIR HALF UP HALF DOWN.
and it's always a tradition that SKTM childrens day will have S CLUB 7 songs.
I SWEAR IT WAS EVERY YEAR!

OH YEAH that was also the year NICOLE CHIN YIN LING and I actually became GOOD friends.
Not even close but just GOOD.

& then I got involved in athletics and choir.
Jyen Yiee and I used to make stupid jokes.
UNCLE VANILLA COKE?
and run over to Nadias house for FUJI apple, I really dunno why...ever?
Yi Ching and I used to run like out of school and play at the playground and then when being questioned...
TRAINING CIKGU TRAINING.
AND THE PRIVILIDGES OF NOT COMPLETING WORK!
Miss WONG JYEN YIEE didn't even start her TATABAHASA BOOK.
Some principals daughter you are.
Mine had three pages okay!
But Cikgu Lokman never marked our work,I don't rememeber doing one karangan in school during Grade Six, yup UPSR YEAR NO LESS at all.
OH OH one time CASS RAN DIRECTLY INTO RAFAEL or was it AIMAN?
Yes directly.
And I thought my eyesight was bad.

AND WHEN WE HAD TO GO TO THE STADIUM,
we sat in either Cikgu Sazs, heh, or Cikgu Zulkiflis car.
I prefered Cikgu Saz eventhough Cikgu Zul always let us dominate his radio,
(no really because CAS will be like CIKGU YOUR MUSIC SO BORING I CHANGE I CHANGE!) he drove like he was in TOO FAST TOO FURIOUS okay, he doesn't stop...ever.

Even when swerving, and all eight of us were like
"AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELPPPP!"

and the boys would laugh at us from the other car.
And after the runs, Cikgu Sazali always bought me ice lollies!

But because I was in choir, I had to go back to school sometimes for practice.
So we'd sit in GWEN'S MAMMA'S car and sing EVANESCENCE back to school.
Her dog was terrified. it just hid under the seats when we came in.
Uh if you heard us sing I think you would too.

At times I had to choose between choir or athletics practice.
One time I was faced with that decision but I had no guts to tell my choir teacher, MS SUSANNA because I missed so many already and I was in SOPRANO one with NICOLE AND MELISSA and they already started their next song!
I don't think NIC you remember but that's the day,Mel told you about YIE CHERNS OLDER BROTHER.
UH the text la.

So I was getting into the car to go to the stadium and next to us at the traffic light was...
Ms Susanna.
I ducked my head at prayed she didn't see me.

She saw me

So AFTER PRACTICE AT SCHOOL, I prayed she would be there still.

She was.

I prayed she wouldn't see me.

She saw.

I prayed she wouldn't call me.

She CALLED ME!

So hanging on to the last strand of hope, I prayed PLEASE GOD PLEASE DON'T LET MS. SUSANNA SCOLD ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

"Daena...
I know you haven't been attending the practises..."

"I KNOW I KNOW MS. I'M SO SORRY I have my athletics meet in three weeks and I know choir is important too but...."

SHE STOPPED ME.

At this point I WAS SO READY to pee in my super short micro mini shorts which were actually my GYMRAMA shorts which were actually REALLY SMALL BOYS SWIMMING TRUNKS.
I was thin and I needed shorts.
One of my gymrama mates mum gave my mum the idea.
And I listened because I had a crush on my mates' brother HEHEHEHE!

"I know, I asked Puan Khoo (headmistress and best friends mamma)
and she explained why you and Jyen Yiee haven't been coming. I understand but you shouldn't be afraid to tell me okay?"

"UH okay..."

"Anyway GOOD LUCK FOR the athletics meet and I'll see you back soon alrught? (: "

I was still afraid that she was suddenly going to burst into anger so I nodded like a stupid mute and went to the canteen.

OH YEAH
My Ustaz was so cool
He let me wear pinafore, because that's all I ever wore, heh
and let me wear my super short MICRO MINI GYMRAMA SHORTS to the SURAU okay!
so I can rest and take my book and stuff.

Oh but he always treathened to throw a bowling ball at us.
and HE HAD A SENAPANG OKAY, DON'T PLAY PLAY.
The guys were NOT nice to me at agama okay.
I dunno how ULTRAMAN DAINA came out
supposedly from my name Daena but seriously it doesn't even sound alike...
and there was once we played hide and seek in the surau.
and FAWWAZ ppulled down the curtain and all who played got hit,
that means yes me too.
But me being ME (: told Datin that Aiman and Kamal didn't play so they got spared from the cane.
Only AIMAN thanked me
*hinthint!*
SOMEONE just stared at me like I was a ghost.

The last page of my grade six dairy,
Grade Six Daena wrote about how much she misses Grade 6M.
She talked about the last day of school.
About all the times the 6Mers shared.
The time where the whole class had to get ready for SUKANIAS marriage to JESSY MCCARTNEY.
I still hate him.
And ZING JOONs bet THAT IF SHE DEOSN'T MARRY HIM HE'LL GET ALL HER MONEY.
She signed the agreement by the way, as SUET TYING as her witness but suet tying wasn't even there so she syiok sendiri say I SIGN ON BEHALF (whatthehell?)
The time where JO nearly killed the class when she wanted to make the burgers.

JO:I'm going to make the burgers!
6M:OMG WE'RE GONNA DIE

The time where SUET TYING kissed JIAN WENS picture!
Singing and dancing AKADEMI FANTASIA SONGS WITH JO AND TRINA!
VIVIAN CHEAH SU VYNN'S obsession with Pierre from SIMPLE PLAN.
OH the simple plan concert which everyone was so obsessed about too.
She wrote about all her good memories, past mistakes and whishes she could stay on.
she wrote about hugging and crying to VITAMIN C'S FRIENDS FOREVER SONG.
And wonders if all her friends will still be her friends in the years to come.

The last paragraph-

"...This year had been amazing,so many ups and downs.
But the most fulfilling, so far.
I will never forget the 6Mers, my friends, my family,my life.
each and everyone of them has left a footprint in my heart.And just like the people they are,very distinct footprints.
But in the gleams of our eyes, the smiles that we bear upon each other is the heart of a 6Mer.
FOREVER.
together.for life."

I just finished FORM THREE this year and I'm proudto say that I keep in touch with nearly 90% of them.
We speak regularly and plan to host a 6M reunion soon.
I am proud to be from TAMAN MEGAH, PROUD TO BE FROM 6M.
More than a class, a family.
6MERS I love you guys.

BEFORE I GOOOOOO.....

Hurin took this picture of me holding my 'wedding bouquet'
'GETTING MARRIED'

ME:"to who?"

ULIN:"whoever you want la"

M:'OKAY KAHAR!"

U:"Eh no I want KAHAR NOW!"

what the hell?

In the midst of Kak Sha's wedding fiasco I took some photos of the dresses I think will be inspiration for my wedding dress!

so cantik

Oh yeah and because everyone is getting married!!!
(Prince E's sister,Kak Sha,TASH IN JAPAN HEHE!,AKIKO&CABERET SIS,SKIPPY&AM......)
WHO ELSE LA!
):
what about me no one wants to marry ME!
I feel so rejected.