words
words
words.

time
time
time.

think
think
think.

exist.




I need to breathe , is all.

my blog is so screwed up I cant pick my own fonts.
It's not 4 pm. I just showered.
Boy oh boy.

I can hear the phone vibrating.But I won't pick up.
I won't.



not yet

oh right I tag: TASH,SAMBO,HARP,FIE,SOPH

Director Frank Miller discribed the main Character:

"This is a man who's died and come back to life. So it twists into fantasy. And of course there are tons of women in it. There have to be — it's the Spirit. They’re all in love with him, and he’s in love with all of them."

I watched the trailer and nearly died.

I couldn't breathe. I'M STILL STRAIGHT! I WAS TURNED ON,YES!

like an 18 wheeler.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
A Twist In My Story-SECONDHAND SERENADE

"Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver"

My words will be twisted? Well I was never a direct person.

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
RESPECT-ARETHA FRANKLIN (HAHAHAHAHAHAH!)

"R-E-S-P-E-C-T.Find out what it means for me!"

I am respectful as to be respected!

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Hollow Men-Justin Nozuka

"Running cirles with you love Hard for me to think of you Here in this dead land full of death My hear is beating fast with tenderness "

I don't know if this is supposed to be meant that way but someone should read the lyrics and tell me if what I'm thinking is what they are too.

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Wanna Be Bad-WILLA FORD

" You make me wanna MISBEHAVE"

Dayum.

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Trust Me-THE FRAY

"Lookin' for somehting I've never seen, lonely on the in between,"

Why are the songs all so scarily acurate?

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Gimme More-BRITNEY SPEARS

"The centre of attention.Even when we're up against the wall,"

THIS IS SO MUCH FUN!

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Supermodel-JILL SOBULE

"All my friends will dress like me.Wait and see.Cos I'm young and I'm hip and so beautiful.."

I LOVE THIS GAME serta kawan kawanku.LOVE LOVE LOVE

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Lucky-Mraz&Caillat

"You make it easier when life gets hard (':

I love you mummy&papa.

9.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF VERY OFTEN?
Can't Break Thru-BUSTED

"I feel like it's time for me to draw the line,I know that I 'll be fine without your b*tchin'.
cos everyday I become a LITTLE LESS NUMB LIKE I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU,"

)':

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Chain Hang Low-JIBBS

"Do yaw chain hang low? Do it wobble to the floor? Do it shine in the light? Is it platinum is it gold? Could you throw it over your shoulder?If ya hot, it make ya cold?Do your chain hang low?"

?haha?

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Secret-THE PIERCES

"Got a secret can you keep it?Swear this one you'll save.Better lock it in your pocket,takin' this one to the grave,"

I tell Akiko my secrets.

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
All I Need is You-Ziggy Marley

"I don't need nobody to make me happy all I need is you,all I need is you,"

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
When You Were Young(Victoria Secret's Fashion Show remix)-THE KILLERS

"They say the Devil's water it ain't so sweet,don't have to drink right now,"

Well mummy did say she wished I could be a baby again.

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
haha okay so first I got Paper Planes-MIA

"All I wanna do is *bang bang bang* **cash register opens** and take your money,"

and I really do want this song to play!
I want the entire beach/ballroom to get up and D-A-N-C-E! But if I need a slow song, I got, okay TIRA
DON'T KILL ME,she LOVES this song see, The Look-RYAN TEDDER

"Is it possible,maybe,to have a love so strong,that nothing can ever compare. I'm holding back nothing just for the look in your eyes,so baby don't be surprised that I want to know what makes your world go round..."

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Somewhere Only We Know-KEANE

"So if you have a minute why don't we go talk about it somewhere onnly we know.This could be the end of everything.Well why don't we go somewhere only we know,"

Does this mean I die with my husband? aww. like the notebook!! as much as I don't really like the movie. THE BOOK WAS STUPENDOUS!

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
In These Shoes-KRISTY MCCOLL

"I once met a man with a sense of adventure,he was dressed to thrill where ever.He went "let's make love on the mountain top under the stars on a big hard rock"I said In these shoes? I don't htink so,I said "honey, let's do it right here","

Perfect! shoes,men,stars,being a femme fatale... ALL MY FAVOURITE THINGS! (;

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Die Another Day-MADONNA

"I'M GONNA WAKE UP, YES&NO.

i'm gonna kiss some part of.

i'm gonna keep this secret.

i'm gonna avoid the cliche.

i'm gonna break the cyle.

i'm gonna shake up the system.

i'm gonna suspend my senses.

i'm gonna delay my pleasure.

i'm gonna destroy my ego.

i'm gonna close my body now.

sigmund freud

ANALYZE THIS

ANALYZE THIS ANALYZE THIS "

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Nice To Know You-INCUBUS

"Better than witnessing colour bending silver spoons,better than witnessing newborn nebulas in bloom.She who see's from up high smiles and surely sings.Prospective pries her once weighty eyes and it gives you wings,"

I love you guys! *imaginary hugs for all!*

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Rip Her To Shreds-BOOMKAT

"she's so dumb come on RIP HER TO SHREDS! oh you know her miss groupie supreme.red eyeshadow green mascara ick! she is too much! for me personally,"

You do not wanna mess with me girlfriend! *does the 'Z' snap thing* OH NO SHE DIDN'T!

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Another Way To Die-JACK WHITE&ALICIA KEYS

"A door left open.

A woman walking by.

A drop in the water.

A look in your eye.

A phone on your table.

A man on your side.

Oh, someone you think you can trust is just another,

Another Way To Die,"

This is so mad awesome coconuts! I DIE AS A SECRET AGENT! BONDGIRLBONDGIRLBONDGIRL!

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Where Love Went Wrong-AUGUSTANA

"The day is done an hour older,the feelings gone so now you'll show her (him) where love went wrong on your shoulder.But I tried,"

really.this is too too creepy.

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Why Couldn't It Be Christmas Evryday-BIANCA RYAN

"I wait for Christmas all year long.How I wish I that I could only change it.Take the calendar and re-arrange it.Then every day would be so nice.Candy Canes and all the Snow that's fallin.Every summer would be Deck the Hallin'."

To usher in the Xmas mood (: yay! This isn't my personal choice but I WANT XMAS EVERYDAY!!

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Aku Bukan Untukmu-ROSSA

"Dahulu kau mencintaiku,dahulu kau mengingini aku.Sekarang kau pergi menjauh.Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku.Di saat ku mulai mengharapkanmu dan ku mohon maafkanlahku,"

I knowwww. NICOLE! THIS IS FREAKY DEAKY!

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Salt Shaker-YIN YANG TWINS FT. LIL JON

"SHAKE IT LIKA SALT SHAKAAAAA"

23.12.2008

Nate's mother is so....

weird.

I cannot wait for season 2 to be in my hands. Kak Bunga :)
I am refusing to watch it on the internet so I can watch it in whole.

I am going to a Masquerade Ball tomorrow.
Nicole I told you to come.










8 more days Marissa.

22.12.2008

Today I did something that amazed even myself.

I locked the door.

Sat there and read THE ENTIRE "THING"

After the first exerpt,I felt the salty drops sting,causing even more.

But I braved myself.

I continued.

Right till the end.

I promised myself,no more tears.

So I let the ones I already made settle about as they evaporated in a flash.

"Marissa, I am proud of you,"

I have never seen you smile like that before.

As foreign as it is,it seems to suit you.

Like I have seen it a million times before.



Maybe I have in my dreams,with me, once upon a time.



But you are happy.

That is all that matters

"Tanjung Malim? They sell pau there right?"

Okay so the Sujaks want to go to Tanjung Malim.

NOW.
My familia is random

Resolutions

1. Clean 'em stupid FACEBOOK requests.
All 486 off 'em.

2. Start YouTube account.

3.Re-start SUJAKOUTURE blog. What the potatoes was the password again?

4.PRINT ALL PHOTOGRAPHS

5.Keep perfect skin regime?

QUESTION: What's Victoria's Secret?

ANSWER:

Wen Hui says:
you are victoria's secret!

M! - whats Victoria's secret? says:
hahah!


Just the answer I was lookin' for (:

Christmas Christmas Christmas !

please.

I am.

NOT.

reluctant

URGH STICK TO THE STATUS QUO FACEBOOK-O!

BACK FROM THE CRUISE!

Currently removing all remnants of face gunk and gonna take a shower.
PROPER UPDATE IN A BIT!

***
Yeah I saw alot of 'em.
RED golf.
so many,maybe a coupla GTRS.
I don't know their names but I knew you'd like 'em if you'd saw 'em.

I went through the underpass with my shopping bags.content.
Plastered against the walls,
posters of KINDER BUENO.
I walk pass pushing through the glass doors,earphones in my ear.
iPod on shuffle,I deliberately halt as Incubus pounds my eardrums.

I walk to the prefume counters.
Satisfying my senses on MARC JACOBS.HARAJUKU.LANCOME.....

I take a swift turn to the left.
Ralph Lauren SILVER.

I'm not dead yet.You know that.
You do know that?





and you frackin' didn't even bother to welcome me home.
simple HI and where is it?
some kind of friend you are.
I don't even know you anymore

Reading that...

One fifth of me just crumbled with the text.

10.12.08'part 2 ; have I become boring?

Everyday I go online check 4 important blogs-S,J,N,R- and mine.
Check my facebook.
Then its YOUTUBE or blog hopping for the rest of the day.

When have I become sooooo...predictable.

I cannot reason to routines.
I DON'T succumb to normality.



ahg.

Daena! Get a hold of yourself and go hit a club,jump off a cliff,join a convent,elope-okay jokes abt the last two- or something.
Dinie? (:

any takers.come on.

10.12.2008

I am liking maroon.

MERRY MERRY 11TH CORY (:
I will not go to Sunway with the kids to not be forced to become Nanny.
And I feel terrible today,so no.
BUTTTTT you'll see me on the cruise guys and to compensate I will chaperone,when I feel like it.
to whereever and you can use my card for the arcade thing! again.

HOLY SHIT the lock on my toilet door just broke! son of a batch a cookies. motherrrrrr.

UGH.

xxx

THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH;

.finish 1 or 2 chapters of form 4 History
.start add math tuition
.START & FINISH SCRIPT,OH GOD. please Parv don't read my bloggg
.HOW LONG IS THE SCRIPT SUPPOSED TO BE?
.cut hair?
.make more stupid lists....



I TAKE IT BACK MAKE THE HOLIDAYS SLOW DOWN! PLEASE

merry merry 12 little one;you are now my BIG man

You don't even read my blog prat but HEY, you know maybe one day when you're in high school.(Which is frackin' next year) you'll start reading my blog and you'll come across this post with tears in your eyes,

eternally grateful for a wonderful sister and maybe cut me some slack when you attempt to go all BIATCH on me.GRR.

When I was a child and mummy was pregnant with you,

and of course I had no clue whether it was a boy or a girl.

But I did for a while pray for a baby sister.

But when you were born I was very happy, my personal play thing

I know where the photos are okay, the ones with you in my pink ballet dress,yes so provoke me again...

Anywho after all the cuteness wore off -heh okay maybe not all,you are still cute baby!

it was hard to relate to you, especially when I stole your hotwheels for myself, THE CAR WASH WAS COOL OKAY EVER SEEN BABRBIE WITH A CAR WASH I DON'T THINK SO!!!

so I kinda thought I wish I had a baby sister.

BUT THEN

I realised I would actually have to SHARE *gasp* mummy's clothes,shoes with her and I was like :

"GOD I TAKE IT BACK I TAKE IT BACK,"

But no seriously, even so.

You know those special stupidos moments like:

"What ryhmes with plastic..."

"Mastic?"

OH and and..

breaking out into the exact SAME song at the exact SAME moment!

And sometimes I wonder if you are actually really funny or whether you just make me laughall the time I'm not too sure why.

I know you are very annoyed by my bad habits-WHICH you have plenty of but since it's your birthday I won't start plus I wouldn't finish- of

locking the toilet door,

walking in and out of the room in just my underwear and bra.HEHE,

kissing you on the cheek outta the sudden,

and just being annoying...

I know that you are very protective of me.

-Oh I think Kamal and Shaz know PRETTY well-

But baby, you actually have to beat up the person who "breaks my heart in the future".haha

Oh baby,

just be a good boy for che.

Don't be rude and PLEASE for goodness sake grow widdle again.

I love you very much eventhough you annoy me.

Well you aren't an angel yourself.

but with a face like this who would believe that?

08.12.2008

1.

Brimming to the peak

Can I contain myself?

And with the slightest mistake

I might lose control and ruin

The one thing I am truly working on

I can't stop it but I can control it.

Not can.

Must.

Will.

Hello hello (:

ABOUT YESTERDAY...
CRISIS AVERTED.
Found the stupid cable hehe!

PRIVILEGED&GOSSIP GIRL2 Kak Bee!

had two parties today.
lil' kids.Esthers.

Good food+good company=

endless Kodak moments.
Enjoy!


Alex and our yummy ice kacang. yums

Can you see Joyces alien nails? scaaareee

Soph in her Xmas dress. haha

Fei!

How long has it been!

My favourite candid person.

Ahhhh. Our long overdue camwhore sesh Soph.

NOT ENOUGH.

The REDS

:O

SOPHIEEEEE

The TWISTER doll

The games begin

Esther and her friends

Cole (:

After Esther and I sent Yee Fei off, Esther decided to some food and had a GOOD talk.

Which will still be continued,yes? (:

p.s I FOUND IT EST!!!!

AND after Joyce&I sent Shern off we came back to an empty room.

Yeah we found the remnants of guests in Esthers toilet with my camera and the lights off.

No la no sex tape. pure clean fun (:

my grandma what a big mouth you have.

END.