I've got sunshine on a cloudy day

This is where I belong.

paradise.
sweet paradise.

IMPORTANT:
If you like to dance
RY ANN!NICOLE!JOYCE!
and ME!
hahahah
download The Way I Are Remix.
Reminds me of clubbing!
I wanna go clubbing /:
I'm tall can you take me? (:
Discotheque please.

Hmmmm it's the end of the Year-End Exams.
Time for a much needed break before leaping off to Form Three baby!
Something I'm not and am looking forward too.
Nicole brought Harpers Bazaar today and we were oggling at stuff we can only dream about.
Well for now right Nicole? (:

Some photos I scout for,I'm serious about working in the fashion industry.
Model or not.Imagine you are PAID to DRESS UP to go to WORK!
Wheeeeeeee



Photography by Terry Richardson.
This was for Vouge.French Vouge if I'm not mistaken.







The last is my favourite.

In case your rather clueless I'm pretty sure this potrays a sort of celebutante being chased by the paparazzi,hence the awkward stares with fags and tantrums which resulted into the soft drink photograph.
I know for a fact that working in the fashion industry is tough.(my cousin is a PR of some sort and gets invited to sweet gigs and fashion shows which he promised I will get to follow when I'm eighteen,four more years!.)
Sure you grace magazine covers,reign the catwalks,get the latest fashions every style every colour...
BUT
yes theres always a but to burst everyones bubble isn't there.
Its a bitchy industry and in this cut throat world,its even worse.
You can't rely on anyone but yourself and you have to be smart about your friends.
Not everyone should know about your secrets or your life.
Cause in this big world its everyone for themselves,the fight of the fittest.
But probably thats why I really want to get in there and experience it.
First here then I definitely want to do it in New York.

"If I can make it there,I'll make it anywhere,it's up to you New York,Neeewwww Yooooorrrkk!"

hence the song (:

After exams Pn Aruna told us to fill up the new cocuricullum card thing and last year they put me as a St. John.
I was like what the fudge?
So whether I'm allowed to or not I don't now,but I scribbled it and wrote "PENGAKAP" in big bold letters.
Much better.

Girls who are scouts are cool ok?
In fact we can rub two shortbreads together to make a fire.
I kid!
We DO NOT sell cookies,nor do we dance around the campfire.
So if you're looking for that I suggest you go somewhere else.

Its less than 10 hours since freedom and I've started painting my nails!
If you're tan like me,Revlon's Vixen works nicely onhour skin tone girls!
and guys if you want.
It's not like I can pray now so who cares!
I'm skipping school esok.
Facial and Raya shopping..
So I'll have to take it off on Wednesday.

instead of breaking mirrors maybe I'll just break my face

Ugh.
I feeel really disgusting today.
Fat and ugly and stupid kind of disgusting and NO I'M NOT HAVIN' PMS.

I like this picture (:
oh and next to Affiq is my good friend Chern Siang who was complaining of his braces today.
Don't worry it'll wear off ohkay?
I cannot go scouts tomorrow,mummy and papa don't let.
I very sad.Sophie if you're going let me know what happened ok.

Today was science.I think I lost so many marks for the stupid last question.
Art.Lets just say I'll stick with English thankyou.

This is so nice.Joyce I want this.oh and a bandeaukini.
Except I'm fat and ugly so I can't wear it ):

I GOT MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK(yes I do.Get over it.)

I don't want to friend Sophia Aliza Jamal and Daniel Tan Boon Leng anymore
I hate you both
(outs on merajuk face and walks off)
No more pink wedding.
You guys are meannnnnn.

This game of make believe that we are trying to play.
Is not going out as planned.Life is stressful enough when your face can crack mirrors.
But I've learnt my lesson.
The scar embedded on my left wrist will never erase.

everyone says I look happier when you're around me

Hi!
ahahhahadsnfn ieo2ifneuI8YOWHLHOHi24p$%2;j
Alex Liew Hing Boon just now said something so gaygaygay!
Kay no la actually I thought it was rather manly of him to agree with me but yah.
It's ok Alex secret's safe with meeee (:

Download Mary's in India(Dido)

HEHEHEHHEHEH
I LOVE SOPHIA ALIZA JAMAL
because she gets high and hungry with me.
lasagna la sophieeeeee! ):

Exams are passing by so fast!
Like literally woosh woosh woosh!
And that means closer to Raya and holidays!
YAY!
Hmmmmm I think I may need to live on eye cream or a while.
Not that I use any but I think I might have to soon.
And Raya is a stone throw away.
Gawsh perfect timing.
Luckily my Raya clothes are all done.
Right?
OMGGGGGGGGGG
:
:
:
PHEW!they are.Thank Gah!
But not all just majority.
Like no new shoes and one more new one ):
I sound like a bimbo.eeeeeeee.
Did you hear that they seperated the classes to come to school after the Raya and Deepavali holidays?
Too bad I'm not coming.I'll be holding the manisan at my uncles wedding.Manisan!
yayay yummy!
omg see how to lose weight )))):
I 'm hopeless laaa

No blog mojo now.Maybe tomm.
byebye

finally.

hello.
say edward cullen in a thick french accent.
"Edvard Kahllen"
My God it even sounds sexy.
Vamps are usually french right?


I personally feel that the previous photo is the yummiest.but to each his own?
Went to Tiras for breaking fast and sembahyang jemaah.
and we went upstairs and I raided her closet(no suprise here)
Let me say I was so snap happy (:



Sunsilk advert (:

tiboobs and I.thats my "Jenny"* pose.

*in the song Jenny by Click5,the "Jenny" does the pout thing in the end.watch the vid.
Eeee malas to do the rest la.
Exams are on friggin Monday ya'll.
Urgh say it ain't so!
I want go dance dance la.
and wear pwetty pwetty dress.
Ugh I feel ugly.I want to shop.But I'm fat.
Gahhhhh!
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How could he do that to her?
She was a mere child.
So petite and genteel and beautiful.
He who has done so much in this world,had to murder her.
Not only that but sexually abuse her as well.
Can you even imagine how painful it was to die like that?
When they showed the DNA tests that the dead body was in fact little Nurains.
I didn't accept I said no,she's out there and tomorrow the tabloids will scream:
LITTLE NURAIN FOUND.DEAD GIRL IDENTIFIED.MURDERER CAUGHT.
I tried to so hard to go along,but I guess its so hard to accept that people these days are so different.
100m.thats sprinting.we SPRINT 100m.
she only walked away 100m to buy hairclips.
Does he not feel any remorse?
In the picture,I was quite convinced it wasn't HERS.
Nurains picture:
she looked so beautiful
carefree
alive...
the body was lifeless,in such pain and you could see that the last moments of her life were the life.
she was struggling and you can SEE the pain she went through.
the guy,the couple to be precise.Its sickening.a couple.what was she an erotic porn experiment?
a hobby?
an offering to the devil?
The couple must have made an offering to the devil.this is sick this is not human.
robbers,theives,killers,whatever it is.
you do not TOUCH A CHILD.
she's not even 12 for Gods sake!
and beacause of those...ANIMALS
she will never get married
get a job
have children
get a degree to help her parents
all because of one sickening couple.
I'm not the type to curse at people but,
I hope that they get caught and are tortured in public before dying a slow cruel death.
I hope you both can sleep cos you see her when you close your eyes.
And at night you hear her crying and screaming for help from inflicted pain.
I hope you can't eat because you see her lying dead.
And when you die,may you go to the lowest of all lows,and suffer in damnation in the worst of Hell.
I hope she comes back to haunt and torture you just like you did.
May Little Nurins soul rest in peace and watch over all of us.
We will eventually stop talking about her,and some might even go on with their lives
But I will never forgive,or forget the cruel deed done.
Little Nurin I hope you know that I'm very sure you have brought so much joy into this world.\To your family and relatives and friends.It is such a great loss to lose you.
I may not know you but you are a special person,its so very evident.
Little Nurin,we will always remember you and you will always have a special place in our hearts.
The dead body:
looked cold
and her eyelashes seemed wet.
her face was so distressed so unhappy.
But we all can only do one thing now.
Pray.
For the loss,for the bastard(s) to be caught,and that she's in a better place.
We should all be happy in a way though.
In Islam those who have not baligh(matured) will not tanggung their own sins.
Children.
And guess what.
All children go to Heaven.

You're drawn to my song

"Nothing but pennies in my pocket
Nothing but faith to keep me warm
Well,baby,then I would be broke without it
Tell me,how much for your love?
Slip my heart in your back pocket
All I got to keep you warm
So baby don't leave me here without it
Tell me,how much for your love?";

I love old songs.
Esp. particularly catchy ones,such as this number by Mandy Moore.In my pocket.
It was the first song that really told me what or showed me what sex appeal was all about.
I was young back then ok?

To all my beautiful girls,
your gonna ace that friggin audition kays?
I love you all so much (:

Ok so I know exams are comin yadayadayada..
but Edward Cullen,is smokin'
Sophie surely you were drunk when you said he wasn't handsome?
I mean not hot alright,he is handsome,nearly or maybe even beautiful.
I'm certainly not joking but when I saw him I felt shivers.
I felt the cold lily white porcelian skin,the strong bone structure.
and startling mesmerising blue eyes(or liquid gold if you've perhaps read all the books)
that literally look into your soul and leave you breathless.
Honestly I was gasping for air!
And don't let me get started on his lips.
Let me just say,if you've seen Ashton Kutcher young,as a model.
Those pouty lips.
Something like that.
Do I sound like I'm describing someone or something completely delusionary?
I probabaly think so.
Your saying how could anyone be so beautiful?



Have I made my point?
He is actually french actor Gaspard Ulliel who has worked beside Gong Li and for you who watched Hannibal Rising he was in that movie too!
I'm not going to post up anymore pictures cos thats gonna spoil the fun,I will if you beg update a few more when I'm feeling rather generous.
But I can be very stingy (:

Psst is anyone interested in Salsa or Tango I'm looking for a partner,
around my height and yes a guy thank you.
If you think I'm crazy for typing that well guess what?
My mom suggested it.
I know.
More soon (:



Mofo sahur is like an hour away and I'm not in bed yet!

I'm losin' you and its effortless

How to Save a Life(acoustic version)-The Fray

I've just noticed that most of my past posts have been in purple for some reason.
It's not like I really fancy the colour like Kak Trina.
She is in love,or more so obsessed with purple.
As I am addicted to The Fray.
I remember Nicole telling me she detests The Fray.
And I also remember her doing the following;

-swinging on the 1 Batai grills with me,sof and tri(until today I don't know how it could with stand us)
-fall off a chair during math in the science lab
-fume at Pn. Tan for accusing her of chewing gum
-singing with me especially to for some reason Aly and AJ
-skipping school for KL childrens choir events
-crying with me all the time (:
-peck Leong on the cheek.for the sake of photography etc.

Thanks to takes-over-your-life duties I hardly get to talk to any of my best friends besides Sophia and Ashley.
Ohkay and Wan Jyn and Jeremy and Shazmeer.
So since Thursday we've been messaging and talking.
My dad's gonna go ballistic when he see's the phone bill.
Wait oes my papa actually look at his phone bill?
Please say no.

Joyce loves rose syrup jelly for some odd reason.
She evn requested it for her birthday.
It's ok Raya is comin' you can jakun-jakun take pictures at the bazaar when you stay over ok?
p.s. the image you put into my head,I have been replaying and replaying and replaying it.
Let me tell you,I lovehate you as much as I love hate the image but still grossgrossgross.

Sophie thnaks for everything ok?
You're one of those special people who can make me laugh when I'm in mid cry.
Remember against the wall,fingernails in his back and biting your lip
or
Fountain,pop leg under the night sky.
I know what you'll choose anyway (:

IloveEsfernTanlikehelltotheyeahcosshemahomeyandifthatboygonnahurtherhegottagetthrumecapice?

Ryannabonanana
mint ice cream in a conv. at drive in movies ok?
Ok.

Ashley please come for class duties more often kays?
Form Ones are totally screwing us :x eeek!

On a totally unrelated note
HSM2 premieres tomorrow YAY!
But if you are like me,you would have already bought the pirated version,courtesy of your nearby pasar malams.
I only watched half cos I wanted it to be a suprise.
Aiyah half suprise is also a suprise right!?

It's I think 3 am and I'm not asleep.
Tomorrow I'll just die in the tennis court la.
OMG exams are comin!I haven't been studying alot.
I don't want to go down.don'twantdon'twantdon'twant!

You know what this years form fives(1990s) will be gone in a few months.
Yes I've cried already.
During scouts when I read their blogs.
Very depressing.
But well the 1990s and the 1993s will always have a special bond.
Since camp last year,to cheer,to sports day and house practices in which most leaves both parties in fits of giggles and some in severe confusion,which makes the other people laugh even more!
When they're gone they will be no more inside jokes,asking for numbers and stuff like that.
Aww we're gonna miss the form fives hope you shall never forget us.
The extremely hyper bunch of kids.The ones everyone loves laaaa.
heh.
Good luck in SPM!
Eh we should have form two and form five photo session!
OK?
OK!

Derrick you can do it!
OC season two is in your hands!



I'm not going to go all my-lifes-a mess on all of you.
Although I am,I'll save the drama.
I'm not about to tell you what to do cause I'm not your mom.
But I hope you know who you are and I want is just a simple answer.
I'm practically hanging on a thread for dear life and it's hard.
Mixed signals.Tears.Words.Shattered Dreams.
What are these things doing here?
Remember the nightly calls which actually still cont until now.And even refusing to put down the phone.Remeber that?
Why is it that it has to result in the thing everyone is fighting for?
The promises of guitar lessons and tennis matches.
How come it's so easy for you to just pretend nothings goin' on?
No this isn't yet ANOTHER stupid crush like you assume.
It's not always going to go the way I want but it has to go somewhere one way or another.
It's all in the hands of God now whether it's going to step forward and perform magnificently or step back and take a bow.
As the curtain calls.
But.
I just wanted you to know that it's real.
It's right here.
It's not a game.
It's real.
It is.


These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledgeof the eighteen storey
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need is you
Hurry I'm fallin',I'm fallin'..

I'm losin' you and its effortless

That was the last thing I remember doing...
Chomping on gum.

Ohkay not chomp,not like a horse at least.Chew?
Yeah that's the word.
Chew.
I remember the flavour of the gum,honeydew and strawberry.
Two sticks to be precise,one of each flavour in my mouth.
Then I smelt something hot and burning like rubber burning,tearing as I heard horrible screeches as if long fingernails were being drawn across a blackboard.

Then stop...

I was in a trance.As if I was swallowed into a bubble of emptiness.
Everyone around me was running,screaming,panicking.
Babies cried,women screamed,grown men were chattering in fear.
After 30 seconds but what seemed like 10 minutes I snapped out of my trance.
I then realised exactly what was going on.
We were going to crash.

It was too late.
Some stood by their chairs and said their last prayers.

Please God help us in our time of need.Rescue us from the perishing fires.God help us!

But some just sat in the seats.Motionless.
Eyes empty.They looked so brave as if to say they were ready to face death.
But they weren't.
No one is.They were just very good actors.

I was both.
After a prayer I sat down and looked out of my window.
I could see the fire.
I felt the flames.Hot and punishing...

First I felt calm yet confused.
But after a few moments the fear kicked in.
So deep.
It hurt excruciatingly.
And my sight turn bleary as my eyes turned hot and red.

They stinged with each drop of water which streamed like an endless creek.
Like the ones behing my house which I loved.The ones that when the sun hit it just right you could see the different colours.
A kaleidoscope of colours dancing in the calm trickling waters.
I always thought they reminded me of the faries in the books Papa used to buy for me.
And he'd sit me down on his lap and read them to me.

"Beautiful creatures with their wreaths of flowers in their hair,clothes out of flower petals,fairy dust and with wings the colours of the rainbow.The colours,they danced as the fairy flutter his or her wings.Beautiful...Beautiful just like you Alice,"

"But Papa I don't have any fairy dust and I'm not pretty like them faries in the books Papa,"
I pouted pointing my pudgy fingers at the oh-so-delicate creatures on the pages.I was on my father's knee,in my fairy costume a baby pink and baby blue mixture of tulle and chiffon tutu with handfuls of sparkles adorning the costume.In my curls were flowers wreaths.Beautiful daisies and strands of lavender to make a beautiful and heavenly smelling wreath.Even with my hair all over the place my father always said I looked adorable.

"Ah but yours is a special kind of fairy magic.See,love,in the picture she has dust.Yours child,yours is something special.Yours is something always with you.Forever..Able to heal any kind of pain,"

"What is it Papa tell me!"

"It's your kisses Alice.Your magic kisses.And thats special just like you Alice.Beautiful just like you...."

Just like you...

I can see them now,trickling magic.
But not then.Oh no I was far too afraid then.
I was angry and afraid and confused.
Just then a felt a soft,supple hand on mine.
A young man,my age.Seventeen.
He was my neighbour for the flight exchanging smiles and thoughtful glances.
But nothing more.
Just a stranger.
Amere stranger.
Yet I didn't want him to let go of my hand,I didn't know why.
Was it because I was scared?
Was it because I liked it?
Or was it because during those final moments I wanted to go off,calm and conceited?
He took me in his arms and sort of lulled me,stroking my blonde curls.
Normally I would have slapped a stranger or worse punched him for over touching me.
But I didn't mind when he did.
I felt calm and somewhat protected like he could save me,eventhough he couldn't I just knew he could.
My fingernails were digging into his strong arms
------to be cont.------

everyone's a casanova,come and pass me the mistletoe.

Oh alright it's not Christmas yet but the song's catchy!
It's the kind of song when you're sort of escaping?..can I say that.
Let me put it this way.
It's gonna be my theme song when I get to the City of Sin,Vegas during the End of the Year holidays.
Why?
The first sentnece:sex is curency
So true.I should know.
I joke!
Easier than love-Switchfoot.
I love bands like them.Sigh

Holidays a-coming.YAY!
Sun,sand,sexy people.happyhappyjoyjoy.
though I'm to miss my prefects posse dreadfully.
They are practically on the other side of the world metaphorically speaking for I am going where the Sun is always shining and they are going to Awana Genting.Brr!C-O-L-D!
Now let us not forget the rest of the gang,enjoy the holidays!
while you still can.

Sorry to burst everyones bubble(including my own)but exams are about a stone throw away.Ok no.But its on the 20th of September.It might seem far away to you but not to me.Oh I just behaved maturely,organising time well!Yay responsibility thing is kicking in woohoo!
Projects are killing me :/
But they also help me achieve an average grade so their heaven-sent too.In their own retarded way.

Golly it's getting late!
Gotta get up early to do KGT with Phiefs and Jyn in school at 8.30am.
Mmmmm I'm akin to eating anything loaded with sugar especially cotton candy early in the AM.
Heaven forbid.
There goes my very sought after Gisele Bundchen body and as-pure-as-a-babys' skin.
When you reach puberty and hormones kick in your body goes totally haywire.
Just ask Dan and Nerissa who suffered bumps and bruises after I pinched and punched and squeezed their hands due to PMS.
three plates of pasta(i couldn't resist!)+coca cola+period pains which come like once to like thrice only in a year is not a good combination.
About as compatible as mentos and diet coke.
Want the not so deadly version of this experiment?
Regular coca cola and skittles.You'd be amazed.


Little note to two special people.
To Samantha Low Wen Xian my "sorella" who is taking acing PMR this year.Good luck in trials and the real thing though I 'll be wishin you again.You don't really need it cos your gonna put yourr friends to sahme but who cares right?
Love you lots!
Sleepover at your place+shopping after PMR,kapeesh?



To Lum Meng Leong aka the fella who lead Kesatria to victory.Second place is a beautiful achievement and I'm not sure if we can do it again next year let alone be the champions without our faithful captain.You'll come back and visit kan?
Good luck in trials and the real deal.(Read above)Don't sweat,(unless that deems you will remove your t shirt haha)I kid!

Turrah slaves of the web!

There's really no way to reach me

I haven't been very honest with everyone lately.Life hasn't been a bunch of roses,well when has it been.I feel entirely useless,disgusted with myself.
I hate doing this ):
My hands are cold and shaking.
My cheeks are drenched in a sort of rain.Beautiful liquid diamonds slowly dripping across my face.
I bite my lip and tell myself not to cry.
As I stare into complete darkness I silently wonder to myself what has made me this way.
And then I remember the reason.
The reason I'm awake.Awake crying.
I murmur a song softly and tell myself everything will be ok.
But who am I to say?
It hasn't been for a long time.
I want to be happy.
Truly happy.
I want to skip when I walk and beam at you when you look at her.
I want to wink and you and mouth go for it.
But I can't because I know that she doesn't know you the way I do.
I never imagined myself in this position all over again I thought I learnt from my mistake with you years and years ago.
She doesn't know you love her and no one does.Only you and me.
I will never stand in your way to get to her,and I'd probably help you if you ask.
Nobody knows who you are and I will never tell.
I want to be happy for you and get on with my life,but I can't at least not right now.

The day's last one-way
ticket train pulls in
We smile for the casual
closure capturing
There goes the downpour
Here goes my fair thee well

There's really no way to reach me
'Cause I'm already gone.

Pure.that's what you are

Hello (:
Urgh the fonts and colours are getting boringer by the minute.
shooshashay.

I got tagged by Nicole and Joyce and Trina and Yee Fei I think.

Answer Truthfully

1.Do you like anyone:Suprise suprise.No.Maybe fancy but like?I think not.

2.Do they know it:I don't think sooo.Let's keep it that way :D


About Me

1.What time is it?:12.38 a.m.
2.Name:Daena Marissa bt Iqbal Hakim
3.Nickname(s):Maris,Sasa,Daenantelope(?),Daen etc.
4.Where were you born?:Pantai Hospital
5.What is your birthday?:Just like Nicoles' (:
6.What do you want?:A box of everlasting wishes.
7.Where do you want to live?:Hmmm I like alot of places but I think I'll stay
here.
8.How many kids do you want?:I think two.
9.What would you like to name a girl?:Phaedra/Tyena/Riley
10:What would you like to name a boy?:Xander/Garret/Kaelan
(But I love baby names and I have a long list but these are a few)
11.You wanna get married?:Yah

You are Unique

1.Nervous habits:I bite my lip,play with my hair and fumble alot.
2.Double jointed:Uh no.
3.Can you roll your toungue:YAH wanna see?
4.Can you raise one eyebrow:No ):
5.Can you cross your eyes:Yeah

All the Others

1.Do you twirl your spaghetti:Yes I do
2.Have you eaten spam:No
3.Favourite ice cream:Mmmm depends on my mood
4.How many kinds of cereal do you have in your cabinet:Four
5.What's your favourite beverage:Jasmine tea
6.Do you cook:Sometimes

In the last month have you?(yes/no)

1.Gotten a girl/boyfriend:No
2.Bought something you didn't really need:No
3.Sang in front of people:Yes
4.Been kissed:Yes
5.Been hugged:Yes
6:Felt stupid:YES
7.Missed someone:Yes )':
8.Got drunk:No
9.Got high:haha Y-E-S
10:Danced crazy:Yes(sujakuoture (:)
11.Gotten your hair cut:Does it count if Manda trimmed my hair WITHOUT ME
KNOWING
12.Cried:Yes.Just today
13.Lied:Unfortunately(or fortunately)yes


TAG FIVE PEOPLE OF YOUR CHOICE:
Ash,Sam,Rach(if she's reading hehe),Nick,uh Meng Leong?

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Came back to school today.
It was ok but I'm lonely in class ):
Hmm 18 more days to Phuket.YAY!



This was in Ariffs' house.I love the mirrors (: haha Mamal!
Ugh I've got the case of horrible sneezles and cough and youknow what that means for me!
FEVER!ohgosh

Mistakes.they only make us stronger.

Thank you Joanna Wong Kae Ling.Now my blog skin reminds me of Marie Antoinette.A movie and book I'm dying to watch.But to no avail ):
Today was dreadfully tiring.But at least we finished the lit thing.Phewwww.But Ariff better get it done!Eeek!

Payback time Suffian (:
C'mon everyone awww with me
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Went home,and headed straight to Subang Parade to get my contacts and glasses done.Have to come back next week /:
Came home and went straight for tennis.
Nina was there yay!
p.s. how amazing does she look with eyeliner on?She already looks fab but wow!

Played tennis.Caught up with Kimmy!Ahm.I was really tired my so happen my tennis mojo wasn't there so I really sucked I just went right at the balls cause I felt really frustrated!!
Well shouldn't have served so hard.
I how do you say this,terseliuh my hand.
It was so painful but I just carried on.Another stupid thing and after the last round I just dropped the racket cos it hurt too much ):
Coach put this ointment and massaged it a little but it was little to no improvement.
And I have math tomorrow and some unfinished homwork and I'm typing with my left hand which I hate!OMA!
And SOMEBODY is literally blackmailing or balckVIDEOING me.
HATE YOU!
Oh hell to the no this isn't happening.
Grrrrrr

strike up the band and make the fireflies dance silvermooon sparkling.
so kiss me..

a million stars.

talk to the mirror...
choke back the tears.

Bewildering pieces.

Haven't been posting very regularly.
very busy.
hmmmmm.my body aches I need a massage oh and a boyfriend!
Sorta nervous for saringan actually.800m and 1.5km AND lontar peluru.
ohkay I was quite suprised to qualify for TWO events but lontar peluru?
Kesatria must be that desperate huh Meng Leong?
I shawwww him walking around today being stressed giving out the numbers.
hahahah a ketua has gotta do what a ketua has gotta do.
Did you know saringan is next week!?
That's really fast.And the week after next is sports day and then its August.
And on the 19th I'll be in heaven,well metaphorically.
In a 7 star hotel in Phuket.happyhappyjoyjoy.
But I want to attend the Prefects' Camp as well but I guess we can't have the best of both worlds can we?
We are selling drinks on Saringan and Sports Day.Buy from Daena kays (:
Oh I visited Trina's blog which featured the wacky vid during the sleepover at Phias.
But it couldn't load well so I'll watch it tommorow.Or actually tonight since its two a.m. already.
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I was really tired on Wednesday so during P.E. I just chilled with Ry and then she disappered for a while so I sat under a tree and watch the boys play football.I had nothing better to do honestly.I don't even know what my new teacher's name is or what she looks like :(

I understand why boys don't ever get tired of it.
They play the game with such energy that even if you have no clue what football is about you just have to watch, as they play with such energy and masculinity yet they remain so graceful.
And it's astonishing how everyone on the field nows that he WILL fall and WILL hurt and may even be seriously injured(MALMAL aka Lutong )':)but it's a risk they are willing to take in order to play the game.They graze a knee,they get back up.Not to show the world that they are macho but to play the game.
Someone tackles someone else.He falls down.
I hold my breath.
He gets up.
The boys play fully concentrated on the game and unaware of the surroundings.
About five boys bump into our very sexy goalie,Jeremy.
Then they ALL fall on top of him.
And for a split second I wanted to scream but I couldn't find my voice.
My heart was thumping too fast and the blood and oxygen was rushing to my brains to fast!
I was so scared only to find the boys gettting up and Jeremy smiling his loopsided smile and contuniuing the game.e the players seem invincible.Like every bruise,cut or graze bears no feeling.
I sit there wondering when it was going to stop yet I wanted to game to go on.
I understand why boys say football is life.Because it is like life.
You score,you tackle,you struggle,you fall,you get back up and you do it again.
Just like life.
A few minutes later Ariffs and Wan Jyns skull collide but oth remain and seemed totallyuntouched.
I sat wondering that maybe during that period of time the boys were in someway somehow invincible.Dangerous yet so calm.
They play dirty,pushing and running as fast as possible,the wind in their hair.
Joshua Thomas screams at an unidentifiable player.
They play in most weather conditions,clothes soaked,face splattered with mud.
Their adreneline rushing,blood pumping.They shout obscenities at the opposing team.And spectators wonder what will happen after the game.Will everything come out fine?Will the game end clean?
"Man,you ok ah?Sorry!"Puts hand up.
But once the game is over the guys shake on it,sheepishly grin and say"Good game"...and or "Sorry man".. and are laughing at each others stupid jokes and remarks just like before.
The field is the workplace.the battlefield.
The players are the fighters,the soldiers.
Everyone is on one side of the fence for that few minutes,
But when it's over everyone is friends again.
I may not understand much about football but I'm willing to learn.Before I leave the earth I plan to learn how to play a decent game of football.
Yes boys you inspired me (:
They beauty of football.
No it's not just the players captivating phisique,buns of steel or sexy legs.(Though I must say Kheng Kins legs are rather nice)It is the game.The way of life.
(NO YAP TYRON THIS DOES NOT PUT YOU OF THE HOOK FOR BEING IRRESPONSIBLE DURING KESATRIA!)
Gasping for air,Kheng Kin walks towards me,smiles and says "C'mon lets go it's over,"
I roll my eyes and playfully pull him by the hand
I get up and we walk towards the canteen
"So why is it that guys never get bored of football?Doesn't it hurt when you fall?Why do you guys have to push and scream at each other?"
After I push about a million questions at him
At first I was puzzled by his answer.
What did it mean?
But as I recalled back the match,finally.I understood.
Still slightly breathing in rather deeply,he smiles and says
"Thats football.Thats the way of life,"

English Beat.I'm sorry love but I'm too British for all this.Cuppa tea?

Hello there
I see no point in swear greetings which some undisclosed people do.What is the point honestly.
You're only making yourself appear cheap.Have some dignity.Or have you lost it in the Hollywood Hills? (:
I've never really liked Hilary Duff until now.I think if I had children,I'd like my daughter(if I'm blessed with a daughter)to look up to her.
She's just different from the rest.Plus she doesn't dance on bar tops half naked and drunk.
Oh and he fashion taste is rather good if I do say so myself.
What am I doin' right now?
Waitin' for Soph to finish her little chat with my banana cakelimhueyyee...oh and singing/humming songs from Grease.
Was aimlessly browsing,reading random blogs,so I typed Sophia's URL in the address bar and scrolldown to read her posts and waddayaknow...
I was feeling rather blah at that moment and I come across the perfect pick-me-up
a beautiful photo of the Grease Boys
Jeremy,Shazmeer,Wan Jyn,Marcus,Ke Ming and Yee Fei.
These boys have a very special place in my hearts.
When I saw the picture it took my breth away.
You boys looked stunning,as always,but you know.
Very handsome that day (:
And during the performance...
if you are squimish back off now
I guess I had my own Sandra Dee moment,I feel in love with the jock,Danny Zuco
my dear Shazmeer.I guess at that moment,and that moment alone I fell in love with you too.
Amazing (:
haha
Cousins are watching Grease.
I miss Grease so much.Even with the amount of hardships.Fights(haha Shaz).Tears.Agony and fear of not makin' it to the finals.We got in.And everyone put in so much effort.I've never seen a production evolve into something so amazing in such a short amount of time.Miracle or not I'm truly blessed to have worked and done practices with you amazing people.
I cannot bear to go downstairs,to watch Grease,Oh no,I might cry.Sure when Summer Nights blasted from the downstairs stereo I jumped onto the computer chair and not too long after the table and belted it out as if I was on stage again.
I imagined my monkey cheerleader friends screaming the Grease family's name.(Dina,Deena right Krish.Inside joke)And how much my feet hurt even though I was prancing around the stage in ballet flats.Oh I'll never forget that day.Many firsts.
First musical performance.
First duet.
First major role in a production(gulp,but thanks for the faith)
First feetache in balletflats.
First slow dance
First love-at-first-sight-for-five-minutes(haha)
The best and worst day of my life.Until my wedding day of course.Ya Allah you even slow dance during your wedding too.Too much of a coincidence.,haha
On the lighter note,
did I story you about Sophie's place?
Well no suprise but it was THE BOMB.
Her mummy's nasi briyani and chocolate cake.is.so.good.
oh and also,I fell in love with Nestle's Guava yoghurt drink.Honestly I feel so icky without it now.Sophie's house is beautiful.The interior is very english and primandproper.But it's so cosy.I felt so at home.At such ease.So cosy.I didn't want to go home at all.
And the ambience outside lifted my spirits.It's kinda like CAMERONS haha but no cold air.
or strawberries.
or tea plantation.TANAMAN BERTERES :D
or...
oh you get the picture
we took many many pictures which will be coming to several blogs near you
namely mine,soph's,tri's,jo's,ash's,nic's,ry's.the people who slept over and came over.
well my cousins are about to come up and hang me if I do not,I repeat and I quote
"Get yer ghetto booty down 'ere and spend some quality love with your Sujakuotures,"
yeah yeah yeah I'm comin'
I'll be updating very soon I promise.

lay here entwined so we can get some

Hi :D

I'm in Sophie's room now.Tri,Jo and Dee are staying over.Ashley can't but she's still here (:

And she's reading this over my shoulder and repeating things over,commenting my words and correcting my spellings.

Whatever.

Boys were here but they went home.Wan Jyn went home the last.We all spent QUALITY time with him.Haha WE LOVE HIM (:

Ate pizza and dranka little coke.Hardly tho.Lots and lots of water tho my moze :D

I really miss my banana cake (JOYCE LIM HUEY YEE :D )

hehe pfft.We were so supposed to go to the gym together but to no avail.Aww

Kayra ish shooooo cute

She's sophie's cute baby sister.

And she likes my boobs(ohkay actually everyone elses)and everyones booty.

Yes she even hit Wan Jyn actually grabbed it.Oh my God.

I'm shhhhhooo mad.Nicole Chin Yin Ling can't sleepover )':

Mhhmm I'll blog more later.

Oh yeah p/s

this is on FIRE

This is rather weird on account that he's been my BEST FRIEND since I think.

Late standard five but I've known him since standard three.

Happy Belated Birthday Deryk Quah (:

I LOVE YOU :D

Oh yes

Happy Birthday Derrick Leong

Today you're finally fourteen

My favourite Bond.

I need inspiration not just another negotiation

Hello (:

From Left:Wan Jyn,Jeremy and Me

hehe Jeremy looks retarded (:

I like this colour.

Come back from your nice nice resort evilJeremy.

Honestly he's a sweetheart la.I love him (:

I'm actually quite prouda myself.Yesterday I cleaned up my laptop which was constantly lagging and I was always complaining to my papa.So i cleaned it up and arranged all my songs and extra stuff.And its working so smoothly.Even better than the computer.

so now my brother is jealous.

too bad

pfft hahah at least its easier for me and my moze.

Less fights for the computer :D

Oh yeah.

Nicole asked me yesterday what moze is and what it means.Well moze is...

Say mother.and now say moze(pronounced mah-ze).sounds similar?

so thats what moze is and it means mother la.haha (:

I just stayed over for one night at kak trina's house and now she has influenced me with her weird choice of words.

On Friday we went to pick Kak Trina from her place at Gelnmarie Courts.Moze was lambat cos she forgot about the alarm clock.

AHA!I have woken up earlier than her twice!Well it's an achievement for me ok c(:

Went to Celebrity in Subang Parade and did kickboxing,coyote and latin.

Tiring but fun.

There was this guy in coyote(coyotes kinda like bar dance.PCD)hes on the big side but he was shaking more than me and Kak Trina combined.Kudos to him honestly.

And in latin I've never booty shaked so much,honestly.I don't know how Shakira does it.

Showered.We were so hungry me and Kak Trina ate a pot of yogurt each which I cleverly brought :D

Showered.Went home.Ate lunch.

Got my things together to sleepover at her place.

As usual.Being Kak Trina she couldn't resist.It's her nature.Or so she claims.

I suppose we kinda look alike.sometimes.

So then I went for my dentist appt.

Is my mother that young looking?The dentist actually asked you're her mother right?

(AND Joshua thought she was hot =.= He even said stepmother ah?!Grrrr)

and Kak Trina laughed so loudly the nurses were looking at her.

And the dentists room was full of green stuff so she camoflouged.hehe

skipettyskipskip

went to KakTrina's

Did Hurins card thingie.

Ate dinner.Sayur masak lemak is the best!I was eating it like sucha jakun cos my moze would never cook it.

Defeats the purpose of eating vegetables.

True but it was so yummy and fattening

After dinner we just sat at the dining table and talked to Uncle Rafie about school and stuff.

He is so funny and cool.

Went up and continued the card thingie.

Trisa came home from her shopping spree with Tita.

She bought so many clothes!

From Dorothy Perkins,stuff from SASA,jewelery from MoriPin

Sure she shops and we work.Yeah ok.

But the clothes she got was so nice!Retro but Abang Hat doesn't like one of them cos he says its a copy of Allahknowswhichfashionlabel 2007 spring collection.

You are wearing a copy of the runway know that!

That's what you get froma cousin who works in the fashion industry I guess.

And when I'm eighteen(four more years) I can go for his events and meet people like...

Chad Michael Murray

Wentworth Miller

and yes Esfern Tom Welling

oh and boys no joke

Jessica Alba

and etc etc etc.

happyhappyjoyjoy (:

I want to work as an intern in TeenVouge can he get me there?

Hope so.

Does anyone have June's TeenVouge.Can I pinjam please?thankyou

talk.slept.woke up.nextday.

Hurins and Trisa's part

NONE of Trisa's friends could come

All were either in S'pore(sale)or not free.and one was studying?!Uh kays...

But we invited 20 over and this was notified long before.Poor dear but she had fun (:

Met a cute guy which I will story Sophie tomm.I already storied Joyce.hehe.

I fell sick.

Next day didn't go for math tuition which apparently she did not teach.She was sick too.

And yeah today I'm much better.Light cough but very very light.

Can't wait

for tomorrow (: Imma gna make Calypso pudding for Sophie.But she wants me to come over earlier so maybe I'll make something simpler if possible otherwise Calypso pudding it is.

So many people staying over.We're gonna watch chicklits,sadsadlovemovies,ANTM manda,and do what we girls to best talk!

Oh and irritate the boys :D

No they are not sleeping overr! >:(

Wan Jyn had better now bring SAW

I love Burberry LONDON for woman(MENG LEONG)

Thank you Godma (:

What's TTYL?

For you I'd give up all I own

And move to a communist country

If you came with me of course

File my nails so they don't hurt you

Lose those pounds and learn about football

If it made you see

But you won't,but you won't

Greetings&Salutations!

OMG I sound like a nerd.

GEEK CHIC (:

I was about to

HARASS JOANNA WONG KAE LING FOR A NUMBER OF THINGS.

1)watching the whole season of HEROES.I won't harass the fella I'll harass you Jo.

You wait on Wednesday (:

2)Peter Petrelli=PROPERTY OF DAENA MARISSA

BUT!!!

yes but.

I have a new obsession BOYFRIEND (:

drumroll.omg lame

OMG HE EVEN LOOKS HOT WITH GLASSES!

WHO CAN BEAT THAT?!

besides me and wan jyn of course but thats ok.

there goes my oh-four-months-without-a-guy-i-am-woman-hear-me-roar pledge.

shalalalalamyohmy (:

Pssstttt...I'll let you guys out on a secret.

I'M SPANISH!!!!

RIGHT KINGTON (:

So in conclusion Jo you can have Petrelli in the meantime while I have James Franco.LOVELOVELOVE

C'mon I deserve him.

I can proudly say..

(or maybe not so proudly)

I DAENA MARISSA

cried more than eight times watching Spider-Man 3

Oh I know you cried too ok when little Penny(or was it Molly)gave her father the locket.

And when Harry was in the hospital.

But the worst.

Harry Osbourn DIED.

Ya Allah I could have flouded the cinema.Honestly.

I tortured numerous people throughout the afternoon.

Among them includes Sophia,Wan Jyn,Meng Leong and Nicholas Wong.

Meng Leong had to listen to me for a VERYY LOOOOOONG time (:

And then he gave me a talk.Just like my papa.Ayecaramba.

Wan Jyn and I were torturing Sophie with...

COLOUR PENCILS :D

inside thing

But its alright its ok

Because Soph and I will make him watch sad soppy corny love movies which will make him cry.

DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT BRINGING SAW!

I mean it.But I know you will.

:/

ARGHH!!!!i CANNOT STAND MY BROTHER!

little irritating pest.I know we fight everyday.well nearly and eventhough it'll become better later on.

Sometimes he makes me so mad I want to crush him!!!!

GRRRRRRRR you will never understand unless you have younger siblings or/and are the eldest.

It kills.

I don't hate him.Of course I don't.well the occasional dislike but you know.

But graaahhh!!!!

I still love him anyway.Stupid elephant (:

Sophia Aliza Jamal owes me so many pictures.Imma gonna trash her house.Poor little compulsize cleaner so bye bye to your perfectly clean room :D

I'd tell you I love you but then I'd have to kill you

Happy Birthday Trina darling.

She's the dear on the extreme left.

She understands my obsession with pink this year.

And we have identicalFAB tastes

She has the same pair of shoes.her is yellow mine is pink.naturally

and we have the same tennis shirts.no we did not plan it.coincidence.

but it does get a little spooky.she was in kenari in sktm which is yellow and now she's in maju which is red.

Now I'm in Kesatria which is yellow and I was in merbah which was Red.

HAPPY bIRTHDAY AGAIN tRINA.

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Grease.

Well I suppose it was good.

Oh here I go being modest.Ok so it was great but it was because of the energy and the fun on stage nothing to do with my cringe worthy singing.I promise you.

Though I have to admit the black choir skirt and the red of the shoulder top plus the white ribbon/scarf.I did look kinda cute (:

C'mon looking cute when you're all sweaty is hard work.That has to count for something.

Oh and thanks to Ry Ann Lim I have this obsession for red nails AND red lips.Oh and a red dress would help too.I feel all Bella now.

Hence the new title.

Who knows I'm mixed of malay+chinese+indian+javanese+dutch,I could be spanish too.

OLE!

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Joyce and I will go to the gym.

We will workout.

We will attend RPM classes (and TRY not to look at the instructers tush)

We will go for Latin.

We will go for MTV.

We will go for Yoga.(oh i most definitely need yoga)

We will(actually more Joyce)remember to bring slippers to the shower room.

We will remember our keys.

We will drink banana smoothies.

We will go for a heavy heavy lunch later on.

That would definitely defeat the purpose wouldn't it.

But life is short.We have to break the rules ;)

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Four months without a man.

AND I'm not a psycho ward.i AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!

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No matter how much foundation or concealer you smooth on,sometimes those nasties still peek out.Did you know lasers(kinda scary but kinda cool) can act resuface them.Blue lights kill bacteria in inflamed spots and majorly clears up skin if you use it once or twice a month.Sounds simple right?

And if you thought lasers were on reserve for fighting intergalactic battles or something?As anyone who has prayed for those nasties to disappear knows that it can take superhuman strength.

We say,why waste energy.Lightsaberlookalikes to the rescue!

May the force be with the dermatolagists.

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I saw this beautiful bikini in a recent ELLEgirl.

Its pink,lilac and purple.the colours themed for I Dream of Jeannie.

Well I got my present,now all I need is a Santa who doesn't wait for Christmas!

Exams=stress
Like everyone else didn't know that.
My blog seems to be somewhat dead.Due to the unfrequent posts.Sorry.Exams
Yesterday in the prefects lounge I was screaming "OMG KE MING YOUR MALAY NAME IS(insidejoke)xxxxxxx"
"HIS NAME IS BLABLABLA XXXXXX TOOO!"
And then I jumped very hyperly and tripped on my skirt.
Oh yeah.
And they laughed.How absolutely supportive.
Bodohs.
Todays mammys 42 birthday!!!
But she doesnt look 42 at all (:
No I'm not sucking up to her she doesnt even read my blog ok.
But if sucking up=belly button ring
I don't mind

Joyce and I are so ready to hit the gym.Or maybe we're just ready to abuse the facilities in the gym?hahahaha
I need to blog.and put in a cbox.

Yesterday I did so many careless mistakes in my science papaer.The most I can get I repeat most! is 84!!! )':
and then I came home and ate mcd's vanilla soft serve which made me feel like an elephant.
grahhhhh!
i have to go study history and khb.taa

i want you so badly but do you even realise?

"...but I wanted Amal to get together with Adam.It was such a pity..'"

I covered my ears in attempt not to hear anymore.

"Phie,I just read a little.A few chapters I didn't now she was gonna get together with Adam.AHHHHH!!!Phie phie you spoiled!!!"
"Hahahahaha.Ok then I won't tell you anymore,"

It's agama and I just Sophie I read Does my head look big in this.It's a bloody good book and I reckon everyone should read it.I only read a few snippets and she's spoilt thebest part.Sometimes I wish I could stranggle that girl.
The boys have gone to do their prayers and since me and Sophie can't perform our prays(girl reasons,you get the picture)we talk and finish up most of our work.

"I love Ry Ann's impersonation la phie.It's so funny.hahahahahaha,"

*Does the impersonation*
**Both erupt in laughter**

"Shhhhh!!!Daena this is the bilik agama.We are suppose to be quiet and not talk about unholy things,"
"Yeah like we'd ever last,"

We pack up our things,salam our ustazah,head for the door and tear of our tudung before even stepping out the door.Sophie looks gorge in it as well but she'd never admit.As for me,you'd seen better looking elepahnats

(this was an old useless post)YAY!