It's four a.m.
I'm waking up to your perfume Don't get up,
I'll get through on my own I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lose the way into your room I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free...Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive,and I need you to try
And save me.
It's ok that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight,tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm ok
At least till yesterday
You know you got me off my highest gaurd,
Believe me when I say its hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive,and I need you to try
And save me.
It's ok that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight,tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me I won't regret,I won't regret I won't regret.
I won't regret...And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive And I need you to try and save me
It's ok that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight,tonight
Tonight...I'm almost alive,and I need you try
And save me
It's ok that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight,tonight,\
Tonight...I'm almost alive,and I need you to try
And save me.
It's ok that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight,tonight.
I need to survive tonight,tonight

Half Alive-Secondhand Serenade

Oh God this is such a beautiful song.I'm not suprised if you cry.It's how I'm sorta feeling right now.Oh the drama.But seriously.Exams are coming in less than 3 weeks and I've been studying,studying,studying.I'm not exactly in a very good condition you could say.There's plenty of zits,and my lips are all chapped and dry that if I don't bring the balm to school my lips would probably bleed.Congrats to my darling bubble tea!!!(You know who you are)Now I feel so alone la.Hate you all!(:gheee...
oh and I wanna give a lil shout out to my darling Nicole Chin Yin Ling who has been having a bit if rough times these past few days..
I L♥VE YOU!!!!!!
and I'll always always ALWAYS try to put that wonderful smile on your face kay? :)
No wonder we're sisters.When one person is in pain the other feels it too.But hey love hasn't been working for me too.(grumble grumble grumble)But love comes when it comes lorh.Right now I'm feeling very anti love/men.Well.certain men.Tyron and Tat and Rowie you guys are one of the most nicest people in the world la.I love you guys too.Oh and Foo & Fei.And not forgetting some boys in Balau.I love you soooooooooooo.You guys can really make a girl happy....when you're not being stupid or immature.Oh and Uncle jazzie too.And 'daddy' and 'grandpa' and uncle philip...bwaaaa...I love those who love me ok?My girls memang tak payah mention.You already know I love you all :D
p.s. Esther let's do the 'he's single,your single jingle' to Nixxy :D haaaa
and by the way...
3 cheers for...
I Got Tagged!!!

Name three schools you went to

1.ahhhmmm...Child Enrichment Centre with Krish,Atira and Joon Kiet.
2.Sri Inai with Ash,Gaston,Spot,etc.
3.my absolute favouritest...Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Megah ♥
now Im in SMKDJ la...

Name three items in your purse/bagpack/bag

1.cash
2.pendrive
3.lip balm

Name three things you do when your really stressed

1.Sing.whether to my fave songs or the ones I make up :)
2.Run.or do something I like.
3.tell someone how I feel.

Name three places you go on a daily basis

1.My home.
2.Schoooooool
3.ACTS studio

Name three of your favourite fruits

1.I can't choose.
2.I can't choose!!!
3.I really can't choose!!!!!!

Three names you go by

1.Dae
2.Maris
3.Sasa

Three of your favourite foods

1.Gotta be Italian
2.Should be Jap
3.I like all kindsa food.I like food.

Three things you're wearing right now

1.England shorts
2.Micymitez tee(the jersey is in the washing machine...heeeee)
3.Contact Lenses

The whos

Who's in the house with you right now

1.whole family
2.kakak
3.my wabbit...MEL!

Who or what are you thinking of right now?

1.Nicole
2.all my sayangs in Balau,Batai,Belian and Jati.
3.GEO...heeeee

Who did you last talk on the phone with?

My mammy (:
or was it Nicole

Who do you sit next to in class?

Wai Kei when Pn. Betty is in class.Nicole when she's not.Ngeh.

Who was the last person you told you love?

My mammy

Who do you wish you were with right now?

Nicole.I wanna cheer her up =)

Who gets on your nerves in school?

It depends.

The Wheres

Where do you live?
SS3

Where is your phone?
Next to me

Where do you sleep?
Uh...on my bed in my room.Where do you sleep?The toilet?

Where was the last place you took a ride to?
School

Where are you now?
My room
The Whats

What was the last thing you ate?
Aunty Elaine's banana crumble

What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black

Whats the closest item to you thats bright pink?
The ribbon on my 5A's throphy

Whats your favourite colour?
Oh umm...red.oh and black an greeen and and and...

What was the last movie you've watched?
A rerun of Emperors New Groove!!!!!!!!!I l♥ve that show mannnnn

The Whens
When did you start school?
Oh I was about three

When is your birthday?
9th of April 1993

When was the last time you went to the mall?
A really long time ago...I think like maybe during the hols.

When was the last time you bought pants?
The last time I went shopping.I think.No.Yes.No.Yes.NOOO!!!!OH MY GAH!!!!

When did you last burn something?
Ages ago....


I tag all who read this post.... >.<

Before I leave blog world I wanna shout out about 'Crocodile Hunter' Steve Irwin.That dude is seriously one of my all time fave tv personalities.Its true for the papers to say that the kids are upset about losing another young idol.Now all of his shows will be re runs.I always wanted to see him live at least once before I die.Well scratch that of my things-to-do-before-I-die list.The world was a better place when you were around.Oh and Princess Diana too.I love her!Lets all do a silent prayer for the ones we've cherished,lost,loved and forever will be loved.To Steve Irwin.To Princess Diana.To all.

Amin/Amen.

Mammy and papa just came home.As expected full of goodies!!!But goodies weren't important I missed them so much la :) By the way their anniversary's a coming.On the 11th of September.Ya I know the day the World Trade Centre got bombed :0 Bwaaaaa...what to do?Call me completely desperado but I even tried Fly.fm's 50 minutes of non-stop moolah.I kept smsing plenty of people asking for names and artistes of particular songs.After many attempts I decided to stop.Mammy later found out when I told her and she laughed and hugged me and said"All me and your papa want from you is for you to do well in your exams ok?"Ah now I feel even more pressured.Right now I'm gonna study,study,study,study,study and study.But I really wanna organise something small for them.A looooonnnggg time ago Joyce said I should make them a candle lit dinner :) Maybe I'll even play 'their' song.Awwwww :] Bahhhh...I've to study now.More tomm....Oh and...I need more ideas and options for my parents anniversary day.Help?

Browsing the net for the definition of chant for choir.I've been looking for it for how many days already.Bah!!!!I still miss mammy and daddy so much :( Mammy called and said she bought me alot of thinggs.Specifically a pretty England tennis tee.I lovey my mammy and daddy.Very addicted to Empty Apartment by Yellowcard and Too little too late by Jojo.Oh my God her voice is awesome mann.Exams are coming!!!!!!!!I've been studying sure but I feel so matified.If I don't do well this time my whole life will be down the drain.That includes tennis.I'd die.Treen and I ABSOLUTELY ADORE our tennis classes.I wanna give up something to concentrate on tennis.But whats here to give up and I have to talk to mammy.Ahh...I feel so lazy today la.Gahhhh!!!!Ngeh :] I have to get ready cos Nixxy's taking me to choir.Right,more of me later.

P.s. download Say Anything-A Walk Through Hell.It might be kinda stupid but its actually kinda sweet.

PINK PEPPER,PURPLE PEPPER,PINK PEPPER,PURPLE PEPPER,PINK PEPPER,PURPLE PEPPER,PINK PEPPER...

Marissa has finally finished her KGT!!!*clap clap clap*Well everything except the drawing of the map.Maybe I might not do cos well it said to draw your kawasan kajian and I kinda almost 'kaji-ed' the whole of SS3 so yeah.But I wrote kinda alot for kawasan kajian so yeah.Some people just got braces after the holidaysss.Like Ke Ming and Wen Hui and they look awesome in them braces so smile smile smile!!!!Mammy and Daddy left for Bangkok today.And if you have to ask yeah I cried.
I know you all are gonna say I'm manja but deal with it ok?
Their comin home on Monday night at about 8.I miss them sooooooooooo banyak laaaaa.But their there cos its papa's anniversary pressie to mammy and himself.
tear tear
My body has not been obeying me lately.My whole bod hurts gila.Today I had difficulty breathing in school.So bad it hurt so much I cried.
whatever
I was about to die you know.Fei fei was like,"It's ok if you die I burn choccies for you ok?"
Oh Fei I lovieeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuu!!!
Yesterday Treen slept over cos she didn't wanna go for her moms line dancing friend's 60th birthday.We actually studied.
really!
After studying though we kept talking like about everything under the Sun ok actually Moon (:
Secrets were revealed.Some we won't be able to believe.Spottie made me feel so much beta yesterday.We were talking well smsing so much all my credit go bye bye la.But he made me feel gooddddd.
Today at school besides the parta me dying it was actually good.In science me,Nixxie and Fia were acting all crazie.Grieving and giggling at the same time.I even scribbled on Fie's hand.Why I can't tell ya.Ngeh.
I couldn't copy my sivic notes cos teacher lostie my book.But I dont really care we don't really do anything for sivcs at all.Bwaaaaaaa.Yoong Tat is damn mean way.HE FRIGGIN CALLED ME FLAT!!!

me
tat
rowie

shoves a plastic bag down tats pocket Nah you need it.
Give me for what?Daena's the one that needs it.
Oh my God kor you are sooooooooo mean I hate you!
Joking la
Humph

Then he also said I was pregnant.Meanest wei!
But Rowie said I wasn't.
Oron tooo.He was like "No la,where got?ok what"
If I wasn't about to rush out to run from tat and ask more people I woulda hug you
Lets hug!!!!!
Sani said maybe I was flat chested.
MAYBE!
I hate you la Sani!But then again I love you laaaaaa...shittifieddd
Jo said "OMG what la damn big already!"
I didn't exactly want that either Jie.But you said they were normal again so I love you back! (:
Then we more of her started shouting cos her bro drove.Congratzz Joel (: Can't wait till I get to drive.I think by the time I drive Meng Leong still can't drive right?Cos you say the guy said not good.Nevermind la.Theres always taxi and LRT.Maybe I'll give you a lift.
hahahahahahahahahahaha
I'm joking.But just incase.
choichoicjoi
Kwekkie made me most happy after school.He said I wasn't flat or fat.I LLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEE you wei!!!!
My adoraaaaaaaaaaaaable whittle puppie Spot!!!
And I didn't give you the cookie.If you asked I woulda let you take a nibble but you ate the whole cookie.Don't start with me about misinterprating Spot.You ate it so there.
Going for my cousins BBQ party tommmmm.Hope theres alot of food.
stupid thing to say
and fun
even stupider
I love Nicole.
I love Tat.
I love Treen.
I love Fie.
I love Esther.
I love Joyce.
I love Fern.
I love Manda & Mandy.
I love Jo.
I love Ash.
I love Ann.
I love Krish.
I love Sammie.
I love Tyron.
I love Rowan.
I love Sani.
I love Spottie!!!!
I miss my parents....Gawwwwwwwww
And Phie phie too!!!!!!!!!
I love you all la ok!
Everyone of you out there.
You all make me feel so special I hate ya'll.
I L U!!!

superheroes and kgt

Urgh.KGT is nearly done.But stupid dapatan kajian.someone help me!Mammy and papa are going to Bangkok on Friday for their pre-anniversary gift to themselves.Well actually from papa to mammy and himself.Hope they enjoy themselves.Bring back the goodies for me! (:Everyone is going goo goo gaa gaa over super heroes.I honestly prefer sidekicks.Ok just one particular one.I ABSOLUTELY ADORE ROBIN!

Oh My God he is so hot!
I even too took a photo with him in Gold Coast.And I got to keep the origanal.Nyeh nyeh sammi!!!
Just to end this post...I'll post a picture of yours trully in her most 'super' attire (:

hehe.till another post ya'll!!

p.s. someone please pretty please help me with my Dapatan Kajian for KGT.

word of the day
promiscuous-
/prə´miskjuəs/ adjective having frequent casual sexual relationships;mixed and indiscriminate;colloquial casual

I'm back finally after days of undescribable torcher.you don't want to know.
I want to my ama and akongs house (:
which is hokkien for grandparents right Meng Leong?
In Kulai which is a wee little estate in Johor for your information.It's malls are nothing.It's boring.But the foods delicious.I absolutely love it there.
But thats one of the reasaons I always put on weight during Chinese New Year.My grandparents make sure I eat.And eat and eat.And eat some more.Not that I'm complaining.Alot.
"Marissa eat.Take some more.So thin la.No husband wants a skinny wife,"
"Aiyoh Debbie you never feed her ah?"
My mammy does feed me.Sometimes too much.No actualy the too much is my fault.All those extra calories are due to all Aunty Elaine's desserts and stuff like that.
p.s. she gave me her 'spoilt' pavlova.which is a sinful gift from God made outta icing sugar.It's like sugarry marshmallows.Trully a sin (: Strictly not for those on diets let alone crash diets.
I got to go to my Akongs estate.It's beyond the Felda land where they grow palm oil trees.He owns a part too.He's got doggies too!Lassie,Blackie,Runny,Midget and I think theres another one.An kampung but not so kampung chickens and chicks.He's got the most awesome and yummiest bananas in the world!Buah Nonas too!And for those who craze for spice in their life the hottest chilli padis around.
But I can't eat hot stuff.
And aubergines,and pomelos,and some herbs and...
He grows stuff ok?
Pearl came too.She's my 12 year old cousin from SKTM.She's taking her UPSR this year *Yikies!*She's 6E.Good luck to her.
and Trisa and Vin Yi and Aminah and all the other UPSR takers too

Ama says I have to learn at leaat one dialect.I thought of Mandarin first.But my mom speaks to me in Hokkien so I'm learning Hokkien first.So if you can speak Hokkien speak to me in it and teach me.

I'm gonna get my contacts soon.Tat and Tyron dared me to get ones with colour.
Are we actually allowed.I mean it doen't say so in the rule book so its ok right?According to them its ok.Well if they are allowed I want violet ones.
Ultra sexy
or maybe green
They say people with green eyes are capable of with holding magical powers (:
what about brown
Always safe but still hot
Lemme know if their allowed (:

Till another day.

Have you ever....
cried over a boy?yes
tried pot?no
tried beer?no
had sex?nope
wanted to have sex?no
kissed your best friend's boyfriend?NEVER!
cheated on someone?no
got lost in a parking lot?when I was younger
got lost in a store?*read above*
wet the bed during a sleepover?no
been in a band?no but I'd love to.
tried skateboarding and fell on your ass?yup
been on a double date?no
played The Sims?yes
played a sport in a team?yes
been in the news?no
been in the newspaper?yes
put your shoes on the wrong feet?yes
wanted to play a pro sport?all the time
snuck outta the house?no.not yet :)
broke a couple up cos you were jealous?never.
watched Unfabulous? yeah
played with a Gameboy Advanced?ya
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The Basics
Name:Daena Marissa binti Iqbal Hakim
Gender:Female
Age:13
Grade:7
Location:Malaysia
Who makes you forget about the world?no one really
Who was your first crush?umm....i was about 6.the one i can remember is Azraei on grade 1
Who do you think of when someone mentions love/marriage?no one
Who was the last person who made you laugh till you almost cried?Nikki and Meng Leong
Who did you eat lunch with today?myself
Where was your first kiss?my lips are currently virgistill waiting for the special someone
Where does your dog sleep?i don't have one but i'd love too!
whats the best thing about your besties?almost everything!
What does your last text message say?message me when you've reached from kak ina
What is the colour of your shirt right now?pink.and its a night gown.
When was the last party you went to?umm uncle roy's birthday last week.
When was your last slowdance?not yet.not yet. :)
When was the last time someone complimented you?today
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Random Stuff
What brand of mascara did you apply today(ladies and some gents)?i don't wear makeup unless i have to.lipbalm/lipgloss doesn't count.
Hoop earrings or dangly ones?depends on my mood
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This or That
being a greeter at a local supermarket or a chasier at Mcd's?cashier!!!!
chinese or pizza?i like food.
ice or no ice?I'm obsessed with ice.obsessed.
japan or canada?sushi or maple syrup...hmm...
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Hot or Not?
fall out boy?hot
MTV?hot
Myspace?hot
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Would you rather?
Angelina Jolie's lips or Pamela Anderson's boobs?both assets are too over.
Jessica Simpson's legs or Shakira's stomach?Shakira's stomach
Jessica Alba's or Jessica Beal's everything?JA
Mariah Carey's voice or J.Lo's dancing?J'Lo's dancing
Steve Madden shoes or Versace dress?I'm not realy a shoe person unless their sneakers.I don't know who steve madden is so i'll take the versace.
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Do you think?
Eminem's lyrics are harsh?its his songs.and i like em anywho
Hilary Duff's prettier after plastic surgery?SHE HAD SURGERY!WTF?!

that killed time.I'm gonna do more of these more often.

NO!!!!!Have you heard?1 Batai has to change class.Our class has been installed with a projecter & Pn. Betty says she loves us so much.She's going to change our class.She says because she loves us.bullshit.With all due respect Pn. Betty your a great teacher and I respect you 100 percent and we all in 1 Batai love you so.But change our class why?She plans to move us to 4 Angsana.but some people seem happy!!!!I on the other hand am not happy at all.most people aren't actually.We've shared our best and worst moments of the year in 1 Batai.Sure we fight...But what family doesn't fight.In 1 Batai everyone is family.Yes,Trina everyone.That means our-secret-weapon-to-hitting-the-ball-person too.And parting with our friends in Balau adds up to another heartache.We've had so many laughs in that class.So much love and joy.I tell just walking in there and just staying there makes you feel all goose bumpy and tingly.Cos its full of the love and joy we've got.Plus also with the help of CF,our class must be pretty holy.haha.no seriously.you'll feel the warmth and the warn in kinda feeling in our class.and it took us 8 months to get used to our class.we don't have much time to get used to our next.I swear I sound like a parent whose daughter just got pregnant but what to do.I fcukinglove my class!sure i still have everyone in 1 batai.but the memories will remain in the class forever.Were not sure when she wants to change us but all the bulletins have been taken down.Just in case.mammy dearest said she'll bake a cake for Pn. Betty so she can consider about changing our class.Oh mammy I love you.
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on the lighter note...

honestly my dad.the other day i was deeply engrossed in another novel and he was all high and mighty'"See?"he said flexing his muscles.
"*yawn*wow papa...so impressive,"trying to sound as bored as possible.
"see.your papa so strong,"
I get irritated by that sometimes.Honestly my dad is a little kid trapped in a grown man's body.he pesters me to download justin timberlake,nelly and beyonce for him.basically r&b and anything with a good beat.I call him peterpan.the boy who never grew up (:
I put on my borest voice and say"Papa my form 4 scouters are so much stronger than you,"
"No la.Please.Nonsense.Who are they?"
"Yes.Really.they are...(I used quite alot of names =) )I think they get strong from all the sports they play and all the push ups they do,"
"Darling*he calls my mam*your daughter is mixing with form 4 boys,"
"Papa don't change the subject.It's nothing wrong.Their just my friends/scouters"
then he humphed and stuck his toungue out at me.
Yeah dad.Real mature.
But I think my papa's mighty fit for his age.
Awwwwwww...I love you anyway papa.Even if you're peterpan. :)
Hey you're birthday's a comin'.26th of October.
Honestly I think everything is so nearby.The other day I was thinking about Christmas and christmas shopping.p.s. sam we have to remind auntie michelle.we're gonna be 'soul ed out's 'santarinas remember.hello cheesy santarina outfits and dancing all night long =) And raya is just around the corner.(well to me it is)duit raya!baju kebaya!fooooood! :) Gosh food makes me so happy!Mammy says I eat boy portions of food.

"Marissa you eat guy porpotions of food,"
*grins sheepishly*
"well at least you have an appetite.but you must learn to eat like a lady,"
"But mammy eating is all the same you just devour the food,"
"But ladies takeall bites,"
"But I'm hungry and I'm not a lady.I'm still a girl,"
"No no...small bites,"
*grrrrrr*
Oh mammy I'm not mad at you.ever.I'll take small bites when I'm in public.Promise.But I can't change the porpotion part.Guys like girls who eat anyway right?
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Mammy,
I love you so much.But maybe its just this year.We haven't really been getting along.When we're getting along,we get along great(even though you 'steal' my clothes and shoes and everyhting else,but then again i do it too :) )but we've been fighting more often this year.I want o speak up but if I do I always think I'm answering back.Or maybe you haven't been hearing me out.Maybe thats why I'm a little secretive this year.But I can promise EVERYTHING IN THE LOVE DEPARTMENT GOES STRAIGHT TO YOU.but maybe its me.I guess i've been rebelling a little but mammy I need you to hear me out and agree.like we used to.It's hard to tell you things sometimes.Unsure of whether you want to hear it or not.I've got the bestest friends but when I need to cry everything off its like we're both to busy.I'm too busy to cry and you're to busy to listen.So I lock everything up.and when I WANT TO LET IT OUT LATER ON i CAN'T.I don't know who I can just cry on anymore.there are so many things i need to let out but I don't know on who.you spend most of your time with lil bro sending him for tuition and school.I'm on transport.We hardly 'talk' anymore.It's like we don't know each other anymore.I need someone to cry on....My mammy is very busy and my friends need their own life.it's either they don't notice or don't care.it's hard locking something in you when you want it out.but what if you haven't a choice and you don't know what to do.all you can do is wipe your eyes dry and tell your self to be strong.big boys don't cry.maybe so.i'm not a boy but i can't show weaknesses.whatever happens.....love you mammy.

m u s i c

Have you ever(ever)had a song that stuck in your head and you could never seem to forget about it even after you've tried,really hard to forget it.It's like somewhere in the Cosmos it was just made to stay in your head and replay over,over,over,over,over OVER AND OVER AGAIN.BUT(but)somehow you don't get sick of it ever.Even after your neighbour in class has gone,"God when are you going to stop singing that song!No offence but aren't you tired of it?"No suprisingly no.Some people get sick of the song replayng in your head(no shit.who wouldn't?).You even try to make a mental note to forget the song.Forget it,bury it and never sing it again.But suprisingly I don't.I just feel that there should be a reason the particular song is stuck in your head.
Honestly speaking,you can tell ALOT about the person by the song he's singing.He or she coud be singing 'Shake It Off' cos they're currently facing some relationship issues.But just don't assume.It doesn't mean if someones singing 'Gold Digger' the person is one.You also have to look at the person.Actions show alot.Look out for unobvious signs and when the person sngs this song does he look happier or sadder?Does he emphasize on a certain word?Sometimes a song can be completely off the reason he is acting a certain way but a few words tell alot.
I can't get enough of The Fray's Over My Head.It's been in my head for about 2 months ad counting.It's sorta like my comfort song.If I'm angry I sing it.If I'm hapy I sing it.If I have absolutely no idea how I feel.Yeah I sing it too.Music can do alot to a person.It just completes who you are.Its part of your identity.Without music there is no life.Honestly who can live without music.God,I love Over My Head.Well I'll post something else later I'm actually s'pose to be doing my homework.Ta.Oh,did I mention I LOVE Over M y Head :)

Defying gravity

How long has it been since I've last updated?A very long time I say.Well it is all due to the renovation that occured sometime ago in order for me to get my own room.So its done.I've my own room.Right,so.Let's get on.Chris,Libby and Fraser left.Well I think it's today.I was at kak Ina's showering and they'd left.Aww.I was hoping for a a BIG group picture.Especially with Libby.KAK Libby I might add :) Sure only 2 weeks but I miss em a whole bunch.Hope they'll be back in Malaysia soon.MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!When I got to Tita's I was greeted by a ball rolling towards me.I ignored it and walked inside.After greeting everyone I changed into my swimming costume.Kak Treen,Qis,Tris and Reen were getting ready.In a bit ,we were already laughing and playing in the pool.It seems the boys were playing footie.Even Chris and Fraser who I might add are highly rugby boys.Especially Fraser.But football is every man's(and some woman's)language.Libby was just sitting there watching them play.Wish she could swim with us.(Libby is Fraser's girlfriend.-their 16-and Chris(topher)is Fraser's brother.Chris and Fraser are Uncle Roy-my uncle's and dad's dear friend from University-'s kids.They came all the way from England.Bless them.)We were busy talking and having 'chicken fights'(the game were you sit on ones shoulders and fight ofyour other opponent)Then Kak Ina had a brilliant idea."I've got it!Let's do an elevator."We all understand some cheer lingo,especially Kak Ina a fellow SRIKDU Stunner and me a loyal DYNAMITEZ supporter.So we did.First of,me and Kak Ina were the bases.Qis was the supporter and Hurin was a was the one on top.A little while later we switched.Qis was the one on top and Hurin was the supporter.And after multiple tryings,after me and Kak Trina were slipping and falling,we finally managed.We did an elevator woohoo!Then we wanted to try an extension.Yeah,in the pool.Frightening.So we tried.We almost,almost got it.But our hands were dead tired we couldn't so we caught Qis just before our hands could fall off.Even so I reckon we were great for starters.It was a first for all.But we haven't photos.Fuck.But I've got some kick ass pics of us
.
ready?

GO!


SPLASH! :D
poor trisa she was our phtographer.tsk tsk.

yes those are styrofoam thingies.don't ask why we decided to pose with them.maybe we thought we could parry evil spirits with it.ha.more like parry people.
and now for some real poser pictures.

hurin's having her moment.nothing new here.
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Qis looks uncomfartable.


she thought me all I know about camwhoring*smirks*wait I also get some pointers from chingee too *grins*

not forgetting me.harhar.I feel fat again.snap.


aww Qis you look so cute.

Hurin pretending to be all high and mighty.wipe that smirk off your face girl.your no royalty.THATS MOI!HAH!
after some time we decided to get in touch with our inner child.get ready for some series wet factor =)

we continued doing our 'flying' pose.ah the sweetness of camwhoring.

Kak Ina :D


Perfecting her signature pop your leg pose.

I look like a retard.

Rock on qis!

Chris,darling*cough cough GAG!*


They plan to join the naional syncronised swim team.don't think they'll go far though*laughs*

after a mini race and some more small talk we were dead tired.we got our towels and walked across to kak treen's to shower.END.
But before I proceed to end this post,after all the pictures you've seen don't faint just yet.I wanna end my post with a killer pic of us SERIOUSLY defying the laws of gravity.

Ok.Faint now. :)

exchange programme

i know...i wasn't in school for 2 days.but i have completely valid reasons i tell you!on tuesday me and nixxy left school early to go for the choir exchange programme.you must think oh so lucky they get to skip school.puh-leezzz.after science me and nixxy we happily taking a stroll back to class while talking then suddenly we hear this,"perhatian kepada nicole chin dan daena marissa dari kelas 1 balau sila ke pejabat dengan beg anda sekarang,"puan jaliah announced.christ we are from 1 BATAI NOT 1 BALAU.doesn't it sound different at all!anywayyyy...after nixxy finished packing her bag.(i already packed mine being the genius that i am.)i realised i left my bottle outside the science lab so did nixxy.then tyron held up her bottle and she was like"omg thank you sooooooooooooo uch tyron!!" hey so wheres my bottlle i thought!so i quickly tried to run downstairs to get it.then foo wai,boey and yee fei came out running and saying"Daena!!!!!!your bottle!"oh gosh i was happy.i love all of you very much much much!!!!we had to run run RUN down the stairs in our BAJU KURUNG(now you know ANOTHER reason why i hate wearing my baju kurung :) ) to run to the office.anette was up there waving"here come here!!!!"so we managed to only to find out we had to go downstairs to get pn betty to sign a letter for us to leave early.oh god run down run up again.when we finaly reach the gate nixxy says"oh shit i left the paper upstairs.""no no please no more running!"i say.but the kind guard lets us go.thank you mister!when we reach there justin,vin and jyenhad already changed!so me and nixxy ran to the toilets which let me tell you are like hotel ones compared to smkdjs.there was a fan,shower,mirrors,proper toilets and lighting.and i could actually breath in there.we had a hard time changing cos we were sticky and we had to wear jeans.there was no way were gonna wear our camisole cos we were frenchconnectionuking hot!but suddenly we noticed our tee was tooo thin!you could see our inner wear and mine was pinky peach-ish...(oh god i can't believe i just typed that!)ANYWAY!moving on...after our changing-into-choir-attire(fancy!it rhymes!) problem we got into aunty sins car and ate sandwiches provided by aunty daph.tuna and egg yum!and we toook pictures.hah!

jyen :)


nico!!!!we were taking pictures of each other taking photos...interesting..


we did take an official nice photo too...vin and justin didn't wanna take in the car *sulks*when we got to kl pac(kl performing arts centre) no one was there yet.except a few.so we ate spaghetti made by my mommy by the lake.we ate at this kind of rest hut i think.its shaded and futuristic..very nice.but suddenly we noticed that the base of the hut were actually wooden planks and it was see thru.the holes werent exactly big but my phone and Ipod could fit through the hole.so nicole sorta overreacted and made vin scared so vin sat nearer to the entrance.s'posely so she could run if anything.and justin was being annoying by jumping on the dock and making vin even more scared.sigh...then iman and keilly arrived.keil was hungry and there was an extra tupperware of spaghetti so she happily ate everything. :) we took more photos...wheee!!!!

vin,me,keilly&jyen nikki&me(she despise this photo.but i think she looks good)
carrying on...we got into the building and into pentas 1.the hall where we were s'pose to have our exchange.and yes you've guessed it!even more pictures were taken :)

from right to left:nixxy,net,shal.me&sammee

from right down thats jyen.behind its me&daniel.then behind us are kath,elena and justin(HAH!Justin finally joins a picture not out of force.evryone wanted to see the sacred photo :) )

me&the gorge alli :)
our photo fun was soon stopped when the pro cantu choir andpretoria girls school came.after a breif intro of this place.it was the get-to-know-each-other-session...sheril was our representitive.go sheril!!!!!then we performed.first it was the kl childrens choir(thats us).we were dead scared cos well theres about more than a hundred both choirs combined.we were ok i guess.then it was pro cantu.the people in pro cantu are from ages ranging from 13 to 25!then pretoria girls school.13 to 18 year olds.they were sooooooooooooooooooooooo much better than us!gawd!we just watched them singing jaws wide open.after that we were broken up into soprano1,soprano2,etc etc etc.to sing adiemus.which is a wonderful wonderful song!it was quite good.then we had to go home.it was s'pose to end at 10.30 but it ended at 10.we saw michael(pretoria girl's condustor)and vin started singing he's there,he's there'he'sthere'he's there,he's there'he's there.so we all started singing and skipping along until pn khoo(or we call her aunty khoo or mummy khoo :) )said wheres justin.so i asked vin yi"vin wheres just?"and she kept singing the michael song."no vin justin!"but she still kept singing."VIN!WHERE'S JUSTIN?!"finall the girl answered "oh he's over there!"gah....in aunty sins car,me,jyen,nikki and vin were talking and singing about michael some more.no suprise actually.he's very hot.(yummeee :P)we met our mommies in projet.so justin's dad was there and picked him up.then auntie daph."oh my gosh my mom disowned me!"i said"s'karang baru tahu ke?"jyen siad.oh my gah i slapped the girl.then aunty daph said i could wait in her car.whee!!!!nicholas was in the car(nikki's brother.)he'd gone inside to buy ice cream so nikki and i went in to buy food too.i was about to put my first oreo in my mouth when i saw my mom.bad timing,much.mommy thanked auntie daph and we drove home.when i got home.i went straight o bed.what a lie.i read,packed somethings for tomorrow,listened to music THEN i went to sleep.the concert will be my next post.till then adios!

randomania

i'm doing cos i'm very extremely bored & i really don't wanna do my homework :) everyones trying it so i guess i'll give it a try.but i really dont wanna do math right now ohkay.i'll name 20 random people.

1.nixxy
2.sofie
3.treen
4.jo
5.tyron
6.esther
7.mandy moo
8.sophie
9.fern fern
10.joycey
11.kieran
12.kwekky
13.annie
14.kak trina
15.atira
16.yoong tat
17.jian wen
18.sammee
19.meng leong
20.shaun chew

1.how did you meet 14(kak trina)?
uhh...shes my cousin.my first.i grew up with her.my sister.people even say we look alike
(sheah right...)

2.what would you do if you never met number 1(nixxy)?
never meet my twin.i'd die.shes like half of me :)

3.what would you do if 20(shaun) and 9(fern fern) dated you?
SHAUN?!HES MY GODCOUSIN PLUS HES 10 YEARS OLD.haha.esfern?no no no me no crooked.me straight.

4.would 6(esther) and 17(jian wen) make a good couple?
hey i think so.i think quite secocok.both uber hott. :) both single too...

5.describe number 3(treen)
i've known her since std 4.she used to be ppg crazy before.she loves bubbles.she loves her hair.she loves af!!!she loves zac-ugly-efron...heeee jking nee.zacs just ok no offence...she pretty,shes cute.she hardworking.shes a perfectionist.

6.do you think 8(sophie) is attractive?
HELL YEAH!shes gorge!!!!!

7.do you know anything about 12's(kwekky)family?
uh...no...not really...hes my puppy :)

8.tell me something about number 7(mandy moo)
shes my bestest friend :) she likes milk and shes very fun.she smart too.plus her posts are so very interesting.

9.whats number 8's(sophie) fave things?
books,cutesy things,notebooks,music...

10.what would you do if number 11(kieran)confesses his love for you?
first i would laugh cos i wouldn't think hed ever ask me.but maybe i'd try...maybe...but it'll take time..he's an uber sweet guy.very nice all rounder.hes single so girls hurry,hurry :)

11.what language does number 15(atira)speak?
she speaks malay,english,jawa(a lil),i think some kelantanese(does dialect count?),nonsense :)

12.who is number 9(fern fern)going out with now?
good news guys.this notties single.so if you want her hurry hurry hurry!!!!

13.how old is 16(yoong tat)?
dato' fab yoong tat is 13.

14.when was the last time you talked to 13(annie)?
yesterday on msn.

15.who's number 2(sofia)fave singer?
oh god shes got so many........chris brown,keyshia cole..just to name a few.

16.would you date number 4(jo)?
no no no.i wouldn't date my sister.

17.would you date number 7?(mandy moo)?
refer to above answer.

18.is 15(atira)single?
sorry guys shes got a boyfriend.

19.what is number 10(joycey)last name.
lim.

20.would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11(kieran)?
yes i think i would.

21.which school does number 3(trina)go to?
SMKDJ.

22.what is your fave thing about number 5(tyron)?
hes very funny,smart,athletic.very sweet and caring too.but can be mean and inconsiderate.

23.where does number6(esther)live?
tropicana.

24.what is your least fave thing about number 17(jian wen)?
i'm not sure...hes very lovable.but he can be a tad too serious at times.

25.name a song that would suit 19(meng leong)?
its a tie.angel of mine by monica and milkshake by kelis...


done!

i'm sorry if my eyes don't sparkle right now.but i promise i'll be ok oneday.

vulnerable-secondhand serenade

(if you don't like emo posts.i'm sorry cos you're reading it & i'm too fcuked up to care)
God why did you make me like this?why didn't you make sure i'd always be the perfect child.they told me i was always trying to impress them before God.not anymore.i was a good student and athlete before God.not anymore.i've changed.i'm more selfish,irresponsible,lazy.i got good grades before God.my parents were so proud God.I used to look forward to report card day(not to be boasting)not anymore.life was simpler in primary.was wrong God for me to have a little fun.to enjoy life as well as succeed in it?was i wrong to do so?oh did you not want me to fall in love with anyone?maybe thats why i've cried so bad before.is that why?you've made me hurt so many people and get hurt past few years.i don't understand.everything used to be good back then.life was good.i didn't cry over little things back then.is this s'pose to be a bleesing in disguise?why did you make grandpa leave so early God?why did the ambulance get lost on the way?why didn't we send him to the hospital God?why are you making kutch suffer so much God?sure she was a little spoilt before but why did you make her life so miserable?behind her smiles i know she cries at night.i know she cries herself to sleep.shes one of my idols God why do you make her suffer.shes such a beautiful,hardworking individual God.shes got 2 sisters and a brother to care for don't make her suffer.her life used to be a fairytale God.why did you turn it into a nightmare?i know you can hear me and my thoughts so please don't ignore me.please help me God.i want to make my parents proud again God.i want to see them point and say"thats my daughter up there!"i want to be young and carefree like before God.doing anything without a worry.i don't really have regrets in my life just mistakes that have eventually turned out ok.please bless my family God.please bless my friends especially my sisters who didn't mind me crying all over them till their pinafores and baju kurung got soaked in tears.who listened to me babble about everything and anything.please bless those who offered help and made sure i was ok.(you know who you are)without my family & friends i prob wouldn't be here as there would prob be no point of me alive.please God if this is nonsense please forgive me.forgive for all i have sinned.i want to do better God please allow me to do so.ive got the weight of the world on my shoulders.life is no more childs play.there is so much more pressure.please let this hell i'm living all be over tomorrow God.(to those who have asked whats wrong well this is it.well part of it.)
Amin/Amen

damn.i got tagged.

I got tagged.Damn.nah not really.Its not like I have anything better to do anyhow.so let me get on with on with it.the tagged victim is s'pose to do the following:
-state the awesome people they wanna meet
-state things he/she can't live without
-state the things he/she wish he/she could do
-state things he/she wants
-state songs that he/she thinks are awesome
-state how he/she sees himself/herself in the next 10 years
-state random facts about the tagged victim
-state misconceptions + the fellas he/she wants to tag

right lets get jiggy with it(gosh lameness)

awesome people i wanna meet
-my late paternal grandfather(i miss him so very much.if i could make 3 wishes bringing hi back to earth will probably be my first.)
-oprah winfrey(lady,you rock my world.)
-durratun nashihin rosli(my gymrama idol.)
-gisele bundchen(my catwalk idol.)
-stella mccartney(have you seen her adidas line?'nuff said.)
-maria sharapova(tennis goddess)
and some other people but those are the ones that i can remember right now

things i can't live without
(besides air,water and stuff like that.thank you captain obvious.I ALSO won't be adding God,family and friends cos they aren't things and WHO can live without these in theirlives?who?)
-my cell
-my comp
-reading material particularly books and mags(I like to read ok?)
-chocolate & candy
-music!!!
-colour(who wants to live in a dull dull world)
-perfume(everyone has their own particular scent they love don't they?be it your blanket,your moms cooking one of it.)
-sports

i wish upon a star that i could somehow
-find a cure for uncurable diseasies such as cancer and HIV
-end racism and make equality for men and women.no one should be hurt cos of their race.
-ban war & prejudice
-have free ice cream breaks for everyone(everyone loves ice cream.)
-melt every cold heart and mould them into warm ones
-make sure everyone has a proper place to stay,proper education,warm meals and love.
-make it so people especially kids don't have to go through things like sexual abuse,poverty,child labour and such
-give everyone family and friends like mine.without them i probably wouldn't be here today.
-make the world a happier place.people will smile more.
-make everyone keep an open mind b'cos with an open mind we can accomplish anything.
-stop the green house affect,pollution etc.
-help me cousin who is currently facing some difficult times as her parents are having some fanancial problems.shes such a brave,talented,beautiful individual.she has 3 younger sibs to care for.she is such a happy great person smiling and offering assistance all the time and never shows how upset she is.i know how bad she must feel deep deep deep inside.when i read the newspaper cutting i cried.kutch* you are my idol i love you!
-use my brains more and start acting like an intellectual being

i want
-a flat tummy!
-to travel more
-to be loved
-to be smarter :)
-to be more active.
-to write
-to catwalk
-to play tennis,RUN,bungee jump,lompat jauh better,kick box...(sport things)
-to earn $$$ and loads of it!
-to excel in geo and history more.bm too!
-to highten my level in math and science :) (i know ok.i can be nerdish too.)

songs i think are way beyond awesome*their fabewsome :) *
-over my head(the fray)*thanks sharon!!!*
-shake(ying yang ft. pitbull)*thanks kak ina!*
-lose control(missy elliot ft ciara)
-let u go(ashley angel parker)
-1 thing(amerie)
-no daddy(teairra mari)
-milkshake(kelis)*meng leong ;)*
-buttons(pcd)*aka the quay song.ryte quay?*
-angel of mine(monica)
-maneater(nelly furtado)
-grillz(nelly)
-lean back(fat joe)
-beep(pcd)*nikki its our song! :D*
ok i've got oo many but mostly danceble songs,singable songs,songs with good rhythm & beat.NICE SONGS LA!

how i see my self in 1 freaking decade(10 years.)
-in love with a 'perfect' guy.loving,caring,smart,suffers from extreme hottness(swoon factor.)
-hott!with cleavage(hahahaha thats funny)
-being succesfull in whatever i am doing
-being a model...or perhaps a freelance journalist,singer,author,gymnast,dancer,performer,tennis player,athlete...no?...maybe a forensic scientist,doctor or lawyer then.
-a womans rights,animal rights,muslim woman rights activist.(hey.i'm just a little girl with big dreams.)
-filthy rich.i'll be rich babe.but i'll donate,save and stuff like that.i'm no dumb blond.

randomania*random facts of yours truly*
-i'm so very random
-i like vintage things
- i like the colour red.ALOT.
-i like number3,7,9 and 10
- chocolate heals
-i'm the radiana of jog-jakarta indonesia(im the original friggin princess.the one whose taking my place now is my cousin.jog-jakarta is the place in indo which got hit by the earthquake.i pray for you my people!)
-i write,read,and dance like no ones watching
-i like icons and quotes
-i'm a randomly vintage scandalous bimbo(does that make sense,no?)
-I'm the donz cuzin
etc.

misconceptions
speak your mind even if your voice shakes.
im the kinda girl who suddenly bursts out laughing at something funny that happened.yesterday.
i'm a rockstare.& you love it.

'nuff said.

i tag!!!!!!!!!!!
-nikki
-manda
-ching
-fie
-pfie
-sam
oh gosh i tag everyone i know then.now,wasn't that easier?