Prestigious&Privileged

2010-06-17T13:45:00.001+08:00

You want to know how to drive me absolutely crazy.

How to make my inside do double flips.

Oh baby you're doing it all right.

2010-06-17T13:31:00.004+08:00

Been on the laptop since 10am.

Showered and had lunch (cos I don't think it'll be brunch any longer since it was 1pm).

Drowning myself in as much trance as possible. I always feel so 'lost' in trance. Perhaps that is why they call it trance.

I've been/am going in constant circles.

I want to go back to the AKLTG camp and stay there a lil' longer. I want to mojo back.

SIGH.

Staring at an empty document page. How long more will this take?

My thighs are hot from the ventilation of the laptop. Scarred from the indents of the laptop vent.

Red,hot and scarred.

But I still find myself backspacing every letter I type.

Everything is wrong. Everything is not right.

My room (I am) is a mess.

I need to fix this shit up pronto.

2010-06-16T02:10:00.000+08:00

2010-06-16T01:52:00.002+08:00

A wise man (well he is every right a man in my heart, attune to his facial hair as well c(: )

once told me that I am not complicated.

But I infact just somehow seem to manage to complicate the most simplest of things.

I know.

I do.

I don't know where you are,what you do,but I hope my heart it goes to find you.

Reality Television

2010-05-21T21:17:00.003+08:00

SO.

Before I surrender my resting rights to the BiologyGod,

I would like to just say a few things.

I DON'T GET REALITY TV.

I know we've all been (are still ) a sucker for these babies

(I watch Kardashians on repeat, seriously even it annoys ME!)

They've got loads on the telly now and the one thing I can't STAND IS!

Having reality television shows like 'The Bachelor'

For those who have been living under a rock for about ever, 'The Bachelor' is basically about said titlesake who gets to choose the love of his life out of a house full of,I don't know,10,15 girls?

Yeah,you're suppose to WIN to marry him.

I remember the first time watching my first episode of reality tv.

It was in fact 'The Bachelor' actually! I was in my final year of primary school, on a school trip to Langkawi. So after dinner and stuff me and a bunch of girls got really bored and decided to check out what was on tv.

(GIRLS, IT'S US:JOANNA WONG,WONG JYEN YIEE AND TRINA YEAP)

Jo and Jyen Yiee started watching it first,but then halfway into the conversation I noticed that only Trina and I were talking.

The two were stuck,with similar stuck expressions...watching...watching..watching.

I thought that it was such a dumb show to watch,LIKE HONESTLY SO STUPID.

But 10 minutes later,

I was suddenly watching the damn show too,along with Trina.

THE BEST PART: I think it was some marathon so Jyen Yiee and I didn't make it past the door and ended up bunking with Jo and Trina (I was sharing a room with Jyen Yiee)

Truth is,reality tv sucks you in!

It's quite literally the satan of tv genres.

Even after watching it I still thought it was so freaking stupid.

WHO THE HELL wants to forgo their dignity just for a chance to possibly:

a) Attention whore

(Honestly speaking. About 73% of the girls in the show were probably in it for that)

b) To get the money

(The other part about 'The Bachelor' is that he suddenly chooses you,you get a choice of marrying him or keeping the money)

c) REALLY really bored

(The girl must like live in a nunnery or something)

d)She lost her job

(WELL this is sort of a valid reason right? But then again it will be a+b)

e)Looking for true love

(Because you'd definitely find her in a villa full of bitchy girls coveting for you-or just the $$$)

I think you'd make more valid fame and cash through being a PLAYBOY BUNNY.

At least these girls are not lying about "finding true love" when they're showing off their boobies.

If you really want to show them,JUST SHOW THEM.

Just please do not find some lame excuse to meet your one true love. Seriously.

Plus if you choose the money over the guy,man you are a slut and the guy. Ouch dude.

SECOND thing I quite dislike about reality tv is...

Making reality tv shows about people who don't even need one.

LIKE THEM:

Guliana and Bill.

I have not (will not) watch this because....

WHO

ARE

THEY?

I know Guliana is an E! NEWS caster but they aren't even celebrities.

I think 'Newlyweds' made more sense than THIS!

And Bill?

I really don't know who he is to be honest.

My dad said he was on some show he won.

"OH OH! I think he won Amazing Race couple years back!

I googled him and he was NOT in Amazing Race.

He was in 'The Apprentice'

And was "fired".

I am not trying to be all cool and shit but if you want REAL drama?

TV execs should consider giving my paternal family a show.

Oh you'd watch that.

But alls well, ends well.

You know why I can't hate them

(Aside the fact that I am TOO morally inclined (:0 )

Saved by the wedding photo.

2010-05-21T21:05:00.004+08:00

You know I've never credited myself to being somewhat artistic in well the drawing,painting department.

I think drawing stick men and graphs are as far as my drawing capabilities go.

(I would to add that I don't know how to draw graphs well either)

So I'm guessing all it takes is a little boredom, a still subject, being too free

(And basically intending to spend the remaining time during your history exam doing something sort of 'beneficial')

It's not Alex okay?

2010-05-17T14:37:00.001+08:00

http://kissez-submissions.tumblr.com/page/29

One thing off my bucket list.

2010-05-16T10:05:00.001+08:00

2010-05-16T09:54:00.002+08:00

Slowly, I breathed out a loud sigh.

Kakak has already turned the air conditioning off 20 minutes ago,and still here I am.In bed.

Wiping sleep from my eyes and just staring at the empty bunk bed on top of me.

I wonder why I'm not profusely sweating underneath the thick comforters. Then I remember I'm wearing just a thin black tank and black underwear. I reach for my thick-rimmed black glasses and I feel this all-black thing I have going on is probably quite reflective of how I feel now.

NOT DEATH MORONS.

Just kind of empathetic.

I want to curl up in my bed and just do nothing.

But when I have the time I know I will never do that,because as lazy as I am,I am extremely unable to sit and do nothing for hours end.

I wish I was that lazy though.

Because that's what I really need right now.

To retire into the cold air and sleep.

I can't bring myself to do anything right now.

2010-05-15T02:50:00.002+08:00

I'm not actually sure if angry is the right word to use.

It probably isn't. But I'm really sad that mommy is going to Jakarta.

I think my mother is my security blanket cos I don't feel safe when she is around.

And I hate to hate feeling this way,but actually I hate feeling this way anyway (?)

You know stepping into FormFive,I really felt like a lot of things would become simpler.

I dropped Chemistry for English Lit.

BUT Englsih Lit. is as hard as hell (I still love it though please do not misinterpret)

I sort of have this 'unspoken' freedom.

For example,on weekdays,I'm actually not allowed on the laptop but I do anyway.

(the reason why I am not allowed to? My brother doesn't exactly follow the rules so...)

BUT now I get this guilt trip whenever I am on the laptop (Note:I feel guilty but I don't do anything about it)

After loosing 2% of the weight I wanted to loose,I thought eating healthily would help.

But this does not apply because I eat a lot. But then I feel so bad for not eating healthily (see note above) HENCE I eat again.

I had serious prospects on serious studying. Everyday kind of thing. And well it works...for about 20 minutes then I zone out. And then there are days where I am at Chapter SEVENTEEN magazine and basically do not move and...you get the picture.

And basically the list goes on.

I don't want to bore you with the fact that OH BOOHOO MY LIFE IS TERRIBLE. Because it isn't.

And I'm not going to cry and tell you that my life is over because I'm fat. Because it's not/I'm not.

It's just the simpler you think life will be,it will just get back to square one,ie:hard (or harder!?)

BUT what can I do right?

I think I am a lot less dramatic compared to couple years back. YAY?

CANNOT SLEEP.

2010-05-13T01:22:00.002+08:00

they are toned and wonderful.

you are beautiful all the same.

(ps. I have bad ones in my possession so don't make me do it sister!?)

Ilm Faheem

2010-05-12T16:34:00.001+08:00

Ilm, you are so beautiful.

Tok Bak would have loved you.

400.

2010-05-11T21:36:00.001+08:00

2010-05-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

Seth and Summer (:

2010-05-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

So this is pretty much how productive Nostalgia is. yeah.

2010-05-05T16:05:00.003+08:00

I think it really helps to be good looking!

Not just in my defence on disagreeing to Pn. Mag's essay,but...

1#It'll be really hard for me to get angry at you

2#Even if I try to (really really hard) I WILL end up laughing/smiling.

3#You have the tendency to be nicer to them.

I think everyone does that and if you say no,you are kind of lying.

Not that I'm not nice to people who don't look good because

I don't really think I've ever classified anyone as ugly enough to be mean to them!

But that could mean I could be just a really nice person.

Or so I tell myself.

Damn you're genes!

marshmallows in the sky

2010-04-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Each new shape is quite amusing:
Puffs to great majestic towers
Building for their loving gift
To bless the earth with vital showers.

2010-04-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

My baby daughter is going to as fabulous as that

2010-04-24T01:14:00.001+08:00

"That's why her hair is so big,IT'S FULL OF SECRETS!"

2010-04-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

MEAN GIRLS 4 EVER!

2010-04-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

Apparently you get better orgasms when you need to pee.

WHO THE HELL HOLDS THEIR PEE WHEN THEY'RE GETTING IT ON?!

On another note:

What if you pee at that moment?

"Come on, what would I do without you?"

2010-04-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

I think my main problem is that I always expect a safety net at the bottom of every one of my jumps.

I like to aim at the prettiest stars right on top.

The ones that glitter the brightest in the pitch dark of the sky.

But when I can't reach it,I don't seem to want to suffice to the little ones at the bottom.

I don't know why,they glimmer too.

And sometimes they also shine the brightest.

Whilst the one at the top burns into silver ashes.

Alike my dreams.

It would be unfair if not utterly selfish for me to stay undecided.

But it is what I am.

In the coziest corners of the night,as my mind gently prods it's way through the galaxy.

I drift of and I think of...

You.

2010-04-04T02:34:00.001+08:00

I just reread (SEE:stalk) Emily's old posts in her blog.

And just realized...

TWO of her post titles have Deryk Quah's name in them.

If I were him I would be afraid.

Be very afraid.

2010-03-28T19:28:00.002+08:00

What was left of Michelle's mani on my stubby boy fingers(2009)

Is everyone as afraid to wake up as I am, or have they left me quietly,afraid to wake me

Really sucks

2010-03-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

When you can't even paint your nails with the clear coat right.

When you can feel that roll of tummy.

That you can't sleep

But you can't do your Physics either cos you have no clue what to do

That you are undeniably lost

That you want to run away

But you know you will run back

How long will this crash and burn?

2010-03-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

I don't know what holidays do to a person but I feel as if they transform you by the end of each one.

Usually the toll's pretty insignificant but after a while, you'll be able to go:

"Where did I go?"

And back at school while the hawks are trying to stuff every little bit of insignificant knowledge into our tiny over productive minds, I just blank out.

I zone out and notice really small things, like

Michelle looks so pretty with bangs.

That Shaz has amazing complexion (he even glows)

Trina sticks her tongue out a little when she's REALLY into her work

For someone with that IQ level Ke Li sure likes to sleep in class a lot

Derrick does have cute hair when the fringe isn't thin, OH SO THATS WHY HIS HAIR WASN'T THAT NICE BEFORE

Kamal's smile really can make you heeehehhhheheheh

How Krish cracks her knuckles when she's paying attention/reading her own notes/nodding her head

Sher Nie can sleep and smile at the same time (?)

Emily is so pretty with her hair up

Ashley is like a MUCH nicer version Regina from MeanGirls, just that she's Asian.

'Blood is thicker than water'

2010-03-21T00:19:00.005+08:00

I really had no clue we bred liars as well.

I've seen the fair share of drama that we've been through-I KNOW,it runs in the family.

But seriously? I mean I know cocky. It's in our genetic code. Pride and ego, please don't deny.

I REALLY don't care if you've done planks before and think :

"OH I bet you guys haven't done them before, you just seemed like it," because honestly I really don't care.

And there you go propogating your "family first" bull shit.

If you don't know how to use "Parents(in our case FAMILY),God,Sweat" PLEASE divert yourself from even USING the word.

Because all that's coming out of it is one big hypocritical mess which I honestly don't want to be a part of.

I love you to death and you know that it will always be that way.

But I honestly cannot take the fake faux expressions that you give me.

To what? Simply sugarcoat and sprinkle your words with glitter and magical rainbows?

Because that's going to make everything better.

Honestly being older,I felt you had more sense in that.

The point is the decisions you made just dawned upon me that you don't see beyond the looking glass.

People out there love you with a choice.

We,I,love you because we're blood and flesh.

Dita.

2010-02-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Dita Von Tesse's kitchen. MAD

I CAN SMELL BROADWAY

2010-02-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

I am so tired but there are books piling up before my eyes,le sigh.

K told me about SATs today,cos his sister

(who got first class honours at Harvard ON A FULL PAID SCHOLARSHIP! sends shivers up my spine just writing it!)

took it and it's basically...

math+ English.

I don't mean to sound totally pompous but...

HELLO THIS IZ MA CALLING.

I LOVE English. I think it's a wonderful language and I enjoy writing/reading/literature&all that jazz. But I'm just okay at it.

And apparently the math is FormThree shizzles well plus a tinge of modern math BUT NO ADD MATH falalalallala.

And yeah yeah yeah the questions are tricky& my math isn't close to Terry's (HEHE tuition reference!) but..pros outweigh the cons here anytime.

JUST TWO SUBJECTS.

I belong there.

Cannot wait till SPM is six feet under #%!^!&!@$

Sleep or study. Study or sleep.

My eyelids are about to cave

2010-02-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

This reminds me of Sandy. Or was it Em. I can't recall.

HELLO LOVE (:

Just a lil' some some to make sure we don't go crazy during exams.

I am determined to make a few people smile tomorrow.

Let's wait and see

2010-02-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

void.

I want to change the colour of my blog.

I want to change the template.

I want to change my picture.

I want to change my blog caption.

But then again,

I want to change my face

I want to change my body

I want to change my intelligence

Human beings will never be satisfied.Never

you hit me once,I hit you back,

you gave a kick,I gave a slap

you broke a plate over my head,Then I set fire to our bed.

2010-02-17T22:20:00.003+08:00

Hi IDA.

If you are reading this. Leave me a comment and your email! It's so hard to keep contact with you!

I'm outdated but..

2010-02-17T21:26:00.004+08:00

I want to watch:-

UP
Elvis and Annabelle
FAME
Valentines Day
AVATAR 3D (I know it's not showing anymore,shut up)
St. Elmos Fire
Grease (again)
Footloose (again)
The entire Pirates of The Carribean saga (I know your mouths are totally gaped open, shut up)
The Lovely Bones

I think thats about it. Anyone kind enough to spare me their DVDs?

Totally want to watch UP. Aww the boy reminds me of my brother.

2010-02-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

I love Adam Lambert because only HE'D do THIS. Would K.Allen? Didn't think so.

Imagine if we got together. We could share our make up and do each others hair and nails together. AWW.

The photos make me crave Krispy Kremes. UH?

2010-02-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

"QUick everyone hold Krish and Rowy up!"

Please excuse my "not there" expression. Was too intently staring at somebody else's YOUNGER man (AHAHA HOHO!)

My class is the light of my world.

They drive me up the wall but always manage to land straight into my heart (':

Ms. Halfway

2010-02-07T19:29:00.002+08:00

Last week of school to Chinese New Year.

My brother has the perfect excuse for not doing his homework.

"Teacher,my dog ate my glasses."

Yes my dog did

2010-01-31T17:19:00.000+08:00

Oh,where did you go?

2010-01-25T19:44:00.002+08:00

I roll out of bed tired but eager.

Eager to start the day or to get it done with,I'm not sure.

But I rub the crusty sleep out of my eyes and trot on my tippy toes to the bathroom sink.

I don't think I can do with the extravagance of a limo picking me up everyday,but I would actually not mind a driver.

My past transporter had been somewhat of a money sucker but since most transports don't really lean towards picking up in my area I stood by that one.

Late last year I found one-my current transport-and passed it to my mom.

Turns out we've been paying about quadriple the amount to the old one.

Damn.

The only downside to this years transport is that I wake EVERYDAY and the Godforsaken hour of 5.30am.

(More so I roll around till six,but if I got up at six I would REALLY actually get up at 6.30)

So that includes me rushing to shower 5 minutes prior to him-my transport- reaching.

I long for the days I had a comfort of a driver but somehow my family has always gotten the rotten luck of a bad,irresponsible driver. (Though blessed with an amazing Kakak,who has been with me since I was 7) And now my parents give me the excuse that they'd need to buy a new car if the driver came along as none of them are willing to give up their cars.

So they await the day I finally drive.-How honestly thoughtful!-

Though I must say I do sort of enjoy the quiet of the transport.

Following the as said transport include a pair of twins,a chinese boy and chinese girl. All form three. A form four girl whom I have sort of befriended since she is the only one who talks,sometimes. And a lone other FormFive boy who apparently is of mixed parentage as well-though he doesn't look like it,but that totally is besides the point.-

Mornings are usually started with me greeting him and him grunting politely-it is sort of possible,isn't it?- and the rest of the journey left bumping,nodding in silence. It's too dark to read my book so I usually,hum and sing-sometimes I even remember some chinese songs that have been playing on repeat on the radio-and pray I don't fall asleep on someones shoulder.

Which I have,just so you know.Many times before.

Since only the other FormFive boy-let's call him J- is the only one who stays in my area.

Both of us sit behind with the FormThree Chinese girl.

The little cute old uncle who is our transporter drives only second to that guy whose name escapes my mind as of now. That guy from TopGear,what do we call him? The Stig. right him.

He speeds through speed bumps leaving us half flying.

And makes impossibly sharp turns. Sometimes I forget he's a cute little old uncle and think he's some kind of mad automobile test driver-which in my defense I LIKE-but not in an uncomfortable Avanza. Which is very uncomfortable, I might add.

the journey home adjourns with me reading The Time Travellers Wife. I have yet to put down that book, simply because I have no time to finish it just yet. I am left engrossed in my own thoughts of babymaking and Henry and Kimy and The Meodowlark house, I almost forget that my bag is placed between me and J,leaving him very little space to sit comfortably in,let alone breathe. Embarrassed, I mutter a small sorry and inch closer to the window,where he nods to say thanks. Usually we look and each other and share an awkward but yet totally fitting smile shared by two people who understand the moment of that moment. When Uncle makes gravity defying turns leaving us bumping into each other,grasping hand railings,bags,edges of windows and very seldomnly, each other at the tips and edges of our uniform so we don't make anymore semi awkward touches.

After that the ride is just usually silence. Me back to my book and him to his thoughts.

the sunlight leaves me tired and hungry and eventhough I never get sea,car,plane or -insert anything- sick,it leaves me a little dizzy and I put the book down. I look outside the window guessing peoples life stories and make vast assumptions that the old lady in the floral print batik shirt may actually have some dark past to hide. I pass dark coloured cars,buildings and I see my reflection,if only for a minute, sometimes I look tired but other times I see the longingness in my eyes to somehow break free of this cage I'm in.

What cage?

I'm in front of my house,I can hear my baby dog bark.

I whisper a quiet bye, and thank Uncle and gather my things to leave.

I could get used to this,right?

2010-01-24T22:29:00.001+08:00

I love Carter Baizen and I don't care if ya'll don't!

I'm not dead if that is what everyones thinking.

But burried under all this work,sure feels like it. Sigh,

2010-01-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

I stared long and unblinking for 15 whole minutes.

I wonder if things like this will ever settle.

Sometimes, I don't believe they do anymore

"I need to know, that you're with me"

2010-01-12T09:47:00.002+08:00

Why is it so easy to flail out of control.

It's the second day of the second week and I feel so suffocated,

Sitting on the old benches in the RoyalSelangorClub's rest room waiting for Mae to be done with her hair. I kept thinking on how much I actually know about FormFour. Not very much if you wanted to guess.

I've been attempting to do my homework since but I feel a big chunk of myself undid, like a piece of me, the stitches left undone.

I feel as though the clock ticks three times as fast and everything is going, gone before I have firmly placed my grasp on it.

I've been blessed with responsibilities this year and unlike the last year, I do not plan to let anyone down.

I'm not a perfectionist but you could say that I am mostly afraid of the HUMILIATION failure brings, for I am not afraid of failure itself.

I miss the simplicity of sitting in the cabins, watching the sunrise while doing add math.

I miss the chee cheong fun in the canteen, the only thing I eat.

I miss feeling desolate in FormThree when I SHOULD BE paying attention.

I miss the prefects lounge, I used to belong there.

I miss the talks I used to have with "Daddy" Shaun LZQ on religion.

I miss falling asleep on Alex's lap during scouts camp.

I miss talking on the phone with Sophie.

I miss Kak Trina reading my mind.

I miss Callie's random texts.

I miss Nicole's HEHEHAHAHUHU in texts

I miss Ry's big eyes.

I miss Joyce's "I FEEL YOU"

How can you miss something that's right in front of you?

You can.

When you know soon enough, it's going to be taken away from you.

2010-01-11T23:17:00.001+08:00

Dear Kesatria,

You have no idea what you have gotten yourselves into.

May I have mercy on your souls.

xoxo

2010-01-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

I do not like when people perceive you to be shallow just because you don't post on whats in the papers.

I just choose not to.

dust

2010-01-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

It's reasons like these that make me want to go.

I don't think I can stay another year mommy.

Think it's time that both of us let go of each other.

-Why do all good things come to an end?

2010-01-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Pretty cool stuff.

gaga for gingham

2010-01-07T22:59:00.001+08:00

His old school charm melts me like a Popsicle on a summer day

2010-01-07T22:45:00.002+08:00

I fall in love with the same things all over again

back to you.

2010-01-03T10:42:00.000+08:00

Vincent and Nick are in Angsana???

Do Happy New Year presents exist?

2010-01-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

Azzedine alaia,square neck.

Happy New Year to me,

Happy New Year to Daena,

Happy New Year to me!

2009-12-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

Dear 2010,

I am currently in my hotel room in Penang,typing on my brother's newer but smaller version of my DELL laptop and struggling with the Caps Lock key since I'm not used to using it. That is because I use the shift key since mine came off (I'm a rough laptop user,SORRY)

I don't think I'll be able to update tomorrow so this will probably be my last of 2009.

I want to tell you about my journey this year.

Most people would agree that Form4/16 would be the turning point in life and I think I can agree to that.

You see I had previously made my mind up to become an ArtsStream student as I hold not much interest to science subjects.

I raised my hand when the teacher asked if any of us wanted to change streams.

I felt that it would be the right choice since,sitting in a classroom of nearly 40 brainiacs,almost all which had gotten straight A's in their PMR exam. I just felt,No this is not me.

And that night,a close guy friend of mine said the wisest words I had heard in ages.

"Stay Daena. Stay in PureScience because you have the potential to study. Being the bottom few in that class is better that not studying at all,"

I thought about it.

Reluctantly I agreed.

Many times (well only when exams were looming around the corner) I felt like a ass for staying in such a class.

Being the assistant monitor,I had to give out the slips for the PMR Prize Giving Ceremony to the entire class.

My eyes filled with tears.

Out of the entire class,less than 10 of us had gotten less than 7A's.

I felt like a failure as I handed out piece by piece,cheerfully calling out my classmates names and clapping in unison to the other students.

BUT,

being in this crazy class made me want to not appear as dumb as I appeared to be.

I studied.

And,I got results.

Not even a quarter of most of my classmates but an amazement for me.

Meeting my class was such...

an amazing thing.

I know a boy who always comments that 4 Angsana is "THE BEST CLASS EVER"

I'm not sure if he's being courteous or he just REALLY hates his class.

But when anyone says that I feel pride and beam simply

"Yes I do"

2009 made me realize that I have 4 special girls in my life.

Who have watched me grow from Form One.

I have fought,cried,slapped,hugged,kissed each one of them.

A simple lunch at BonBons changed my perspective forever.

I have an enormous family.

And have been blessed with wedding after wedding.

Yes I complain of the run throughs,the fittings,the preperations...

But the beauty of it falling into place,makes up for all the hardships.

I have also just recently,been blessed with a baby nephew,and am getting used to being called AUNTY *shivers*

I have rekindled old friendships (HI ASYRAF! etc.) and made new ones (HI HUSI! etc.)

I have made a boy I never thought I would be able to,cry.

I have shishaed.

I got a puppy which is the love of my life.

I have gotten a ride back from a person I began to trust.

I wrote an email to my HighSchool IDOL *SOPH

I highlighted my hair!

I grew to love a certain Abangy whom will never show his love but I know very well does.

I have hurt and have been hurt.

LEO Leadership Camp.

Was an amazing experience.

I will never regret joining LEO.

2010,

2009 gave me the courage to take different steps in life.

It gave me the strength to endure and even to understand and appreciate friendships deeper.

I am not afraid to love the people I truly love but I know that I don't love everyone.

Eventhough I fight and disagree with her,

I love my cousins with my life.

I plan to make up with one I am having a rift with.

And I love my cousin,Kak Trina who has held my hand through life itself.

2010,

God has help me realize that money truly isn't everything.

You see I have wanted a SweetSixteen for a long time and imagined a lavish celebration with acrobats and a marquee and an ice sculpture of myself (or something along the liens of that)

When recession struck the world leaving my poor father to struggle whilst I threw an amazing bitch fit to show my anger.

But I then realized that maybe,I didn't need that.

Maybe I would live.

AND true enough I did.

This year I debated fro the first time and standing there shaking the wits out of myself,I somehow got BestSpeaker in the final round.

I auditioned for Dynamitez and made it through the auditions.

I wrote my first interschool drama script (which reminds me...)

I wrote another script for my schools BM WEEK

I performed once again,making it more than the 5th time I have performed in my school.

I somehow have also managed to survive 4 years of grueling teachers and homework.

I still remember the first day of school

BUT

I can't wait to step into my pinafore again.

2010,

I don't know what you have in store for me next year

Driving,SPM,Prom and all.

I hope I pass driving and don't hit any trees (like I almost did)

I hope to get straight A's for SPM

I don't have to get a prom date,but I want to have fun and be with the people I LOVE.

But please,

Let me soar.

Carpe Diem.

Thank you 2009,you have been.

Breathless

Things to get done.

2009-12-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

Buy school shoes.
Headbands
Delete old songs from iPod
Sync Papa,Baby,and Mommy's iPod
Wax
Pack
WRITE DRAMA SCRIPT
WRITE OTHER DRAMA SCRIPT
Do AddMath/Chem homework
Crunches
Lay off dessert
Fix printer (so incapable of doing this)
Pass Letter to Ry+Abangy
Email Sophie
Remind Abang Ned on Javeline
Fix my STORM
Sell my STORM
Buy a WHITE BlackBerry ONYX
School bag?
Pencil box
Cut nails
Charge camera
Upload photos
Pee.
Sync my own iPod
Figure out how to conceal my highlights
Comb Pavlova's hair everyday
Get new transport
OR convince PAPA on getting a driver
Give Ry clothes for boutique
Eat Macau egg tarts :D
Persuade dearest cousin to make sure I don't have to pay her fling for the eggtarts
Pray
Did I mention pack

70% of these things will not even be done.

Lets start with number 24 now. (hehe!)

2009-12-26T03:13:00.002+08:00

It's 3am and I'm tired and uninspired-mmmm song.

There was no make up or pretty dress.
No sweet alcoholic drinks.
No wild dancing.
No spray stuff.
No glow sticks-man okay I love those things.
No Santarina opportunities.

And I have two snoring-yes YOU BOTH SNORE-cousins beside me.
But you know what,I guess I'm happy (:

love you sluts.

2009-12-22T01:52:00.002+08:00

Life is so fragile.

Yet we chew it up and spit it out like it bears no significance.

2009-12-16T01:37:00.001+08:00

This does not actually help the fact that I love children.

"OHHHH I WANNA HAVE YOUR BABIES"

2009-12-12T02:28:00.002+08:00

I have very protective friends.

I have a very protective friend who is stripping and prioritizing me over his shower :D

I am sleeping alone even after watching Paranormal Activity.

I SO POWER

2009-12-10T15:32:00.001+08:00

So amazing

2009-12-10T00:30:00.004+08:00

@#!$!%!#% tuition on a holiday.

!#@$!$%!# my brain for NEEDING TUITION.

@!#!$@!@$!@$! LACK OF SLEEP,MY INABILITY TO STOP EATING,TO LOSE WEIGHT...

BLOGGER NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO BE A BITCH.

Happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy motherchucking thoughts

2009-12-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

This means Kak BeeBee's home!

2009-12-09T17:43:00.001+08:00

GIMME MY NOSTALGIA,b*tches and hos

2009-12-09T17:21:00.000+08:00

This,I miss.

2009-12-09T14:23:00.003+08:00

People tell me they don't fall in love,I find that extremely hard to believe.

Humans were meant to crave affection.

As a baby,we cry and squeal for our mothers embrace,for our fathers gentle hush.

We fall in love with the cute boy at the sand box with red shoes and Hot Wheel socks,sand in his hair.

We fall in love with the kindergarten teacher who promises us a date once we are legal.

We fall in love at weddings and supermarkets,

over glasses of wine at fancy French restaurants,where your hands and intertwined with his and you forget the snooty waiter with his annoying accent.

At the checkout line when the person "accidentally" forgets to swipe the 15th item or so.

At the bus stop,he gives way to you and lets you take a seat first.

Your heart and his beat in rhythm at the football game.

His because it's the last 40 seconds.

You because he caught you looking and smiled in your direction.

After the win,you run and jump into his arms,forgetting the cheers and the whistling,in check with only each others heart beat.

We turn to leather whips and handcuffs.

A substitute to the purity.

But we fall in "love" again.

At the movies,

We try to pay attention to the screen but what we're really thinking is

"Is he/she going to kiss me?"/"Does my breath stink of pizza?"/"I wonder whats for supper?"

And we succumb to cliched hands through the popcorn box,the yawn and stretch..

We sit in the air conditioned dark of the cinema hall,light of the camera flickering

watching famous people playing strangers in love

heroes like Peter Parker who loves Mary Jane

but he doesn't love her enough to give up

saving the world in blue and red tights

more than he would love having her ankles wrapped around his waist.

While we involve our emotions in the heartache of fictional characters

The girl at the pop corn booth is in love

With the boy who sold us our tickets

And stares at him at the corner of her eyes.

Who is in love with the girl who sneaked him his first bag of pot

Her ripped up baby tees and bed-hair,her raspy voice

They way she bites her lips when she smiles at him.

Her eyes...did I mention her eyes.

You could get lost in them,her hair. How could we forget.

A sea of black.

And if the world had any compassion left

They'd let them meet on a cold rainy night,unable to get to their cars

Pass back and forth a cigarette until their fingers touched and the girl,

which the bed hair and raspy voice forgot about her promiscuous lovers and fell in love with

the pop corn boy.

Under the flickering fluorescent who was in love with the switch.

Near the tap which was in love with the water that ran through.

We fall in love with the wind.

The inside jokes,when "he" burst out laughing with me teaching me Chemistry.

With perfect teeth,with imperfect teeth.

With lunch dates with friends.

Stamps and envelopes-the licking proves it.

We fall in love with the best friend for a but a moment

when he catches you like,something out of THE NOTEBOOK.

With teachers who talk to you like mothers

With best friends who cry with you in bathroom stalls

With best friends who act like big sisters

Who makes you get up and pray and brush your teeth.

With cousins who sit through 3 hour hair appointments doing nothing but keeping you company and reading old worn out mags.

With fall in love with moments,

with songs

with secret words only we understand-"Colourful"

under the quiet repetition of the ceiling fan under the watchful prying eyes of educational hawks.

Two pigeons kiss on my roof.

2009-12-03T02:46:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm aware that I won't be able to stay up for tuition tomorrow.

I was at the dermatologist today.

The same one Lee Chong-Wei goes to HOHO&Em.

Maybe it was the lack of sleep no thanks to those pesky FaceBook updates but...

I was greeted by one of the nurses who was by far the prettiest Asian girl I've ever seen.

And if you guys are even COMPELLED to say that your pretty little SNSD girls are perfect.

By golly are you guys out of your wits.

I think I had a insta-girl crush momento.

You know Shu-Qi,yeah she looks like that. BUT she's a mother of two kids-sense my jealousy-

I tried to take a photo but it was getting a little bit obvious.

Before going into the doctors office for a consultation I needed to pee and she,the nurse (whose name is Joyce by the way) pointed it out for me.

It was down the corridor . Right down. Far down.

You've been to a hospital right? Right.

Watched a hospital horror flick? Where the lights suddenly start flickering and the length of the corridor increases.

Yeah it was like that.

This clinic is in Klang and you know those shop-lots they have in Klang.

In this clinic they perform cosmetic surgeries,tucks,lifts,peels,facials,dermabrations.

Botox,cosmetic dentistry...Loads of those things

So it took up like what? 10 shop-lots. And I'm not even counting the ones below.

When you come up to the entrance,to the counter. It's divided into two areas and a nurse usually directs you where to go.

And since I usually only go there for facials I was brought to that one area.

That place alone has about 20 rooms. So imagine walking down an empty corridor,illuminated by the fluorescent flickering and pristine,somewhat bleached walls pinned with beauty article cut-outs and such.

Passing each room filled with machines used for God-knows-what,God-knows-where.

Call me paranoid but the already air-conditioned environment went chillier as it was.

Quickly I marched to the toilet. I have never peed to fast before and I,for the first time,wished my mommy actually followed me in.

I sped through the corridor as fast as my legs could carry me.

And on my way I passed what looked like...

a cupboard under the stairs!

WHAT was this? Friggin' Harry Potter?

Do people live in there?! Tried to calm myself down by saying thats where they kept the supplies. But I thought of the knives and syringes and I guess you could say that didn't help.

What also didn't help was that the doctor consulting me had obviously taken Botox over a long period of time. I wasn't even sure if he was angry/confused/happy. Lack of facial expression scares me.

It didn't help either that his cupboards which had glass doors embedded on the them,were covered in black paper.

Like he had something to hide.

I went into another office and the glass panels to the cupboards were all frosted.

Which on normal circumstances would have been deemed as a chic choice for furniture,

but why did I feel something not right?

AND WHY WERE THE SYRINGES PLACED SO CONVENIENTLY ON TOP OF THE CUPBOARD!

It's either I am crazy/have an over active imagination or I'm on to something.

I have to go back there,so I'm actually hoping it's the first two.

2009-12-01T16:40:00.003+08:00

Today I have taken cleansing to whole new level.

I can't fit any more songs into my damn 1st gen 8GB iPod Touch.

Therefore I'm deleting those that I don't listen to that frequently anymore.

If you must know,I am a confessed pack-rat. I find it so hard to throw things away.

This includes wrappers of candy bars I like...empty bottles of treasured perfume...receipts...

newspaper cut-outs...ancient memorabilia

Yes,even jeans which I CAN NEVER fit into.

Not even with a little help of wishful thinking.

Sigh.

Bye bye old songs.

You know that feeling...

2009-12-01T16:32:00.001+08:00

Where you're brimming with things to say.

Just how and should you?

The complexities of the human mind.

I won't talk about you.I have dignity.

Bed.Now

2009-11-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

Apparently your body rests during the hours of 1am till 10am.

So sleeping beyond that time proves to be useless?

I just messed my biological clock up by 18 minutes.

As much as I relate myself at being a creature of comfort,I do not understand why I love using the laptop in the wee hours of the morn sans the air conditioner or fan on.

At first it was supposed to be a "this-is-to-signify-five-more-minutes-I'll-be'done-in-a-jiffy"

But after I realised it wasn't going to happen,it became a habit.

Maybe I am NOT a creature of comfort.

Honestly I think if I get used to it I CAN suffice as a rather hardy person.

Someone once commented on me being deemed "spoilt"

Well,I'd beg to differ.

My dad grew up with a maid to himself,as to all his other siblings.
My maternal grandmother had SEVERAL.

One to tutor her,one to send her to bed,one to make her meals etc.

During her time she even had hired help to PLAY with her when she was a little girl.

I admit I do falter in the cooking department,my brother would beat me hands down.

BUT WHO FIXES ALL THE BULBS AND BROKEN TOILET PUMPS.

ME!

Okay maybe it was Ah Choy the plumber but I did it thrice.

Whatever.

That REPLAY song is stuck in my head,no thanks to TeohVince.

2009-11-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

Is it me or do Coldplay songs seem to just have this inevitable power to make you cry?

Chemistry tuition 'morrow morning after Baby Adik's sesh,and then that LEO thing at Vince's.

If it's actually on.

OHKAY it is.

I haven't touched my chem work HAHAHAHAHAHHA,early day!

Have been occupying my days at Celebrity. I come home achy but the good kind (:

SATISFIED!

Dear God.

let us all pray the marshmallows for the campfire will not be devoured in this few days prior to the camp.

Amin/Amen.

p/s. remind me to collect my Havainas from tira!

2009-11-11T23:57:00.001+08:00

FACEBOOK is beginning to piss me off. Damn photograph uploader.

Actually technology refuses to abide by my rules. Grr.

Am pooped from gym,updates soon

2009-10-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

Eight out of ten things? Are you fucking kidding yourself? Something tells me I'm living with the wrong people

2009-09-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

I told my brother NOT to open the door cos I was about to change.
After several seconds of long waiting, I proceeded to get off my chair to change.

The door opens and my brother appears, his head popping out of the small space.

Sigh.
Brothers either need new ears OR a new brain.

2009-09-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

Came across her amazingness (HAHA,no such thing) after I recorded myself singing this exact song!

I SHY SHY to put it up (:0

Today was a good day at school,the boys make me smile once again.

Photos will be up soon,promise! pfft Joyce.

2009-09-25T01:54:00.002+08:00

OK well promises were meant to be broken,stupid ones anyway.

On the lighter note,I have my BBerry back!

And I DID put my time to good use.

If you think you're a good stalker you haven't met me.

WHY ARE UNDERAGE BOYS SO CUTE!!! WHYYYYYYYYYY!

2009-09-24T03:06:00.002+08:00

Even as I sit in this chair,wistfully wishing for a tattoo on my wrist,

I am squirming and trying hard not to faint.

I am afraid of anything touching my wrists.

Even a light brush(let alone NEEDLES),takes some mental coaxing to not suddenly pass out on somebody.

But isn't it time we all let go of something?

You deserve so much more,I hope you see it the way I do.

Love you too.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

2009-09-21T01:40:00.004+08:00

Don't let the smiles fool you! (:

So Raya is the month of forgiving right?

Baby Adik:"Hey KAK! Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

NOW I forgive YOU for being such a loser!"

Kak Satik:"Ish tak senonoh budak nih!"

And meeting up with the relos no?

"Dude where's Aunty ______?"

"Follow the laugh love,follow the laugh,"

And honesty?

*opens up Raya packet*

"FIVE RINGGIT! What a rip off!"

"Ika that's my hard earned money okay!"

*throws money on the floor*

"I think you need it more than I do,"

(This happened between an 8 year old and a 29 year old. The rest of us.stared.in.total.disbelief)

And sharing?

"Kak Trin,share the mare the cake?"

"Go to hell,"

But in the end there's always time for love.

"I wish I could watch the fireworks with a guy I fancied,"

"Since you're already hugging me,I'll just shut up and you can pretend I'm him la!"

"Go jump off a bridge,"

I love my (semi-dysfunctional) family (':

2009-09-20T03:45:00.003+08:00

Nair Strips+Derrick's phone hehe.

And you thought you were messy.

This was the day before the LEO thingy

Those who went can see my Butterfly top above.

IS THAT MY KNICKER DRAWER LEFT AJAR!

Blogger's not being very nice ):

(YES it is,seeee the photos above (: )

Thank you everybody who has been behind me and next to me through out everything.

Today I visited my grandfathers grave.

After reading the yassin , my papa said

"You can even silently tell TokBak (grandfather)what you want to tell God as he's closer to Him,"

I haven't broke down that way in so long.

TokBak always told us,

that in life there must be a balance.

There is good and bad.

But he urged us all(grandkids,children...)to pray.

To obey the Five Rukun Islam.

As he always said

"If you don't bayar (pay) the telephone line,how is God going to answer your calls?"

Oh Operator The Line Is Dead.

On a happier note,

Selamat Hari Raya everyone.

I urge everyone to reach out to ask for forgiveness from everybody important in their lives.

Life isn't permanent but damage can be.

Although so can forgiveness.

Have a wonderful Raya everybody,

God bless.

BIG HUGS TO MY ANGSANA HOMMIES!

2009-09-11T03:17:00.002+08:00

It's lebih kurang 3 in the a.m. and I just finished making mammy and papa's anniversary card,YAY!

BUT it's seriosuly nothing fancy(lots of pictures and cut outs from my old VOUGEs,ELLEs etc)

Gragghhh no EMILY skills sorry,my creativity is only with uh...writing stupid class scripts hehe!

I just watched the 'GEE' vid of Derr,Alex and Ty and...

I think I forgot their faces.

I need to get back to school pronto.

I have the weirdest dreams now.

OH yesterday I looked in the mirror and for about 1/18th of a second I thought I looked like Megan Fox.

Best 1/18th of a second ever man.

I need to write proper posts+put up dance pictures-HEH SOPH KENNETH.

Writing e-mail now.byeeee

"and tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you can't replace"

2009-09-08T01:02:00.003+08:00

I really want to talk to my best friend now.

But I'm afraid to wake her up.

I've never gone this way before.

What happened to the times where I'd never even hesitate to picking up my cell phone?

I miss you best friend,

and listening to FixYou by ColdPlay,I pretend you're telling me all I need to hear.

But honestly it's you I need to hear.

I hope to be in someones prayers tonight

2009-09-08T00:53:00.003+08:00

I don't know if I'm fighting cos I'm mad or I'm fighting because I'm just not happy with myself.

Sighhh...

I could finally go downstairs today.

I know,I feel worst.

So as I flipped channels,I came across:

"CELEBRITIES BATTLING DEPRESSION"

"MARYKATE GOES ANOREXIC"

Flipped to this movie,HungerPoint.

Something along the lines of not being happy with yourself and eating disorders

And I just wept on the settee with everyone upstairs.

You know what's the part which twisted me all up?

When one of the interviewers who interviewed MaryKate said that she wished she looked as pretty as Ashley.

They're twins.

I don't know if I'm sad cos I've been there before or if it's because I'm still there.

SPECIAL DELIVERY

2009-09-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

Ahhh Raya,the season of eating,taking and receiving!

OH and FORGIVING!

Uncle KC's hamper's are always the best but this year...

TWO!

I know I deserve to be spoiled but this much.

But why thank you!

This is my spot right there!

2009-09-07T04:23:00.002+08:00

I had the cutest dream the other day.

Another with my sexy LEXY LIEW!

(Don't I always dream of you,weirdly enough! At least THIS ONES PG rated)

I was at my old apartment in,well I'm not thinking straight so I forgot.

And my family went downstairs to check out like the family centres

-do they actually have those?-

and the place looked pretty refurbished and all with those Zen hot stones and mini waterfalls and all.

In fact it looked kinda alright.

And so we all wandered on our own for fun and I met ALEX,well it's him at about 10

-us actually-

cos I looked into the waterfall and I saw that I was in a Little Mermaid shirt

-with no bra none the less,not that I had boobs at that age anyway,but I felt sorta naked,sorta liberated in fact-

and a pair of pink pants with 'My Little Pony's all over it.Oh yeah and a PowerRanger watch. The red one,I loved those guys.

Anyway,I was feel sorta weird right being ten years old with Alex and I said "Hi,Alex!" and he was like "Oh hey,uhm yeah I'm Alex,you are?"

I really didn't believe he forgot me so I just said Daena and we started playing.

PowerRangers,did I mention I love those guys.

So after a bit we got tired,and we found a spot in that lovely Zen garden of ours and just sat back on the grass and looked up at the stars.

And it was kinda romantic except at ten,the only guy you fall in love with is the RedPowerRanger,TheLittleMermaid's PrinceEric or that annoying guy and kindy,not your love at first sight.

And then we looked at each other,and....

BET YOU THOUGHT WE KISSED.

WROOOOONNNNGGGGG.

Then we argued on whether it was chips or french fries.

-that actually happened with my first best friend.His name was Bevern and he was my neighbour. I don't know who he is anymore ):-

And I don't remember which part we told each other our chinese names but we did and his was

"ALEXANDER LIEW THIAM CHYE"

Thiam Chye is nicholas' chinese name for those who don't know.

I poked Alex in the ribs and giggled

"Why do you have Nicholas' chinese name Alex?"

He turned around and said

"WHO!?"

bizarre.

Stand where I Stood-MISSY HIGGINS COVER

2009-09-07T02:07:00.001+08:00

Fell in love with this song cos of Cole but ohmyGosh this is beautiful.

Kina Grannis always delivers

2009-09-06T18:45:00.003+08:00

This made my day today

Stolen orchids from your mummy's garden and a card. Thank you kitten!

You made me smile today (:

Okay so this is kinda how I look like if you've forgotten!

Sorry! I didn't even comb my hair.

doin' my English Literature h/w whilst watching Sugar Rush.

see you in a bit.

2009-09-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

Neil just called.

You just made my day with that nearly 50 minute phone call (:

2009-09-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

IT GOT JAMMED

!#%!#^!^!$#^!$@&&

2009-09-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

In your face.

Because of my intelligence I now can work the internal DVD player on my laptop

*takes bows and welcomes standing ovations and roses*

2009-09-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

Do not mess with a girl with a 38.9 degree fever and be a bitch about it!

DAMN YOU STUPID LAPTOP DVD PLAYER!

2009-08-29T12:59:00.003+08:00

Tribute to CrystalDanceSport tomorrowwww!

Are you ready lambs!

2009-08-27T06:24:00.003+08:00

Why is it this is the only thing you are so against?

Did you know always press me to work for what I want?

I did,and I got my place. But no congratulations nothing.

Nearly four whole years in DJ and you know very well I have loved it from the start.

That as July looms around,you pretend to go dumb,to ignore every comment,every update.

"Mmmm" or "Oh really?" is all that leaves your lips.

You're quick to switch topics like that. To push it away and pretend you didn't hear it.

BUT WHY?

Is it because it isn't "prestigious" enough?

Do I need to be debater?

I recall the look on your face when I told you I got in.

Shoot me if I'm worng but...

If I were to tell you that I was a debater,

that my practices were everyday,

that you'd need to pick me up,

that my Saturdays and Sundays would be full,

that I had not ONE,not TWO but AT LEAST 7 different debates to go for,

AND NO I can't drop out of any.

You know what?

I still think you'd say yes.

Not just that,oh you will gloat kill kingdom come.

"My daughter,she's a debater"

BUT

"My daughter,she's a cheerleader,"

Does not have that same "oomph" to you.

It does not leave an impact.

"Who would remember a cheerleader?"

Is that what you think?

I think I would remember them IF,

they worked hard and I saw them everyday,slaving for the best toe touches.

I would think,

"WOW these girls put their heart and soul in to this,"

You saw my gleaming face the moment I stepped into DJ,you knew that THIS was what I wanted.

But how many people did you call,

did you ask for opinions,when they were positive seek the negative

did you comment on transportation problems,

did you remark on the long hours,

did you cluck your tongue at their schedule...

"What about your tuition?"

"You won't be able to cope"

you even when so far as to associate them in cliques.

"But I spoke to Aunty ********. They are,well,apparently not very nice people,"

Of course you didn't use that sentence.

Oh no,you used a much harsher one,didn't you?

And to think that throughout my 16 years,weren't you the one telling me not to judge people?

You will never admit this but I think that,

I will never make you as proud as I did in primary.

I can see it in your eyes.

When I say it,you look away.

You get quiet,you turn around.

16 years you tell me not to lie,

Hey mum?

I think you shouldn't lie to yourself either.

I'm sorry,

I love you.

2009-08-26T01:50:00.003+08:00

Revelation here folks.

Does Kamal not kinda remind you of Taylor Lautner???

YES! HE HAS THIS TOO!

RAWR

I LOVE MY LYNNIE YES I DO

2009-08-22T01:10:00.002+08:00

Am I a sucker for happy endings?

Does someone want to do that for me???

My toes are throbbing so I can't get up ):

Lynnie is staying over ohhhh yeahhhh!

2009-08-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

This really reminds me of my beloved 4 Angsana!

No prize for guessing which two are Rowan and Shaz.

Proper update soon,my toes are about to snap

2009-08-16T01:53:00.003+08:00

"Wasabi UP!"

Is it possible not to love her??

She is the awesomest possumest thing ever!

Check these out these are the shiz! HOMMAGOD.

C'mon she has sushi fingers,NOW THATS WHAT I CALL EDIBLE ART.

...

Jia Shern has really pretty legs-sans the fact that he has scars-

He is a girl,c'mon that is NO FAIR.

THANKS LOVE LOVE for helping me out with my tumbles and my lovely lovely KIT who helped me with my motions,I can feel it in my arms tonight! *hugs and kisses*

Spent the earlier part of the day with MANDA and the next part lazing about before heading over to KITs!Polished off Ika's leftover butter pop corn and then made an impromtu head out to OU. We bought pretty shoes for Raya,well she did. OH I AM ENVIOUS!

We had some weird Churros wannabe which was ick.I miss AMERICAN CHURROS and there was this booth we passed and the poeple there said it was a Model Search-mabob and told me to join. Unfortunately I was two years short of age so OH WELL.

I rrrreaalllly want cute knickers!

OH TODAY I COULD DRINK MILK!

This is literally "shake shake shake the glitter!"

HEHE

I will be the first person ever to create glitter sticky-tac and become FAMOUS

2009-08-09T14:42:00.001+08:00

I have never been so happy at getting a blister but today,

Little Blister You Just Made My Day (:

2009-08-08T10:11:00.000+08:00

This is amzing

2009-08-05T16:12:00.000+08:00

the pictures are on facebook.

finally.

mmmmm this calls for nappy time. night night

2009-08-03T15:21:00.001+08:00

She's amazing.

AHGGGG! WHat is wrong with YOUTUBE! They won't let me watch any KingsOfLeon videos.
Something about copyright restrictions in my country!

FAG

2009-08-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

I just really want a hug from my mum.
Maybe it's all those songs in my iPod.
Mmmm.
I'm allergic to the fibres on my table *scratch scratch*
I love Yasmin Ahmad movies.
This year I had to permanantly scratch out three things

.get all A's for PMR
.attend an MJ concert
.work with Yasmin Ahmad

uhg.

My cousins from London are here till the 22nd of August,they called me pretty. But seriously i was too mesmerised by their adorable features!
CUTIE-PATUTIE! And Elly has a girlfriend called Carlotta,she's Italian and an Armani KID model.

I wanna wear a mismatched bikini and swim all day.

I'm wearing Kamals watch

2009-08-01T02:01:00.003+08:00

You know how you're in the middle of a complete moment by yourself?
Where you're so absorbed in your feelings and you just block everything out,so you can thoroughly think and fix whatevers up?
And theres a completely awesome soundtrack (by chance,or maybe NOT) in the background,the cherry to your "thought provoking moment" sundae.
BUT THENNNNNN...

someones blog starts playing,
"NICE LEGS DAISY DUKES MAKES EM BOYS GO WOOHOO!!!"

The sprite was thoroughly angry now;GRRR!
HAHAH.

BUT no seriously,IT JUST KILLS THE AIR! uhg

xx.

Today was a good day,from the start.
Even with us all struggling to do FIVE impossibly hard ADD MATH questions.
Even when we couldn't remember our lines and moves during rehearsals.
Even when we had to reveal parts of ourselves to people we've known for a year or two?
Maybe less for some.
Even when we forgot that one part.
And found it funny and laughed about it,

We did it together.

xxx.

You know I've always pondered on about the beautiful lyrics of Details in The Fabrics.

I think I finally understand it.
I guess we all have those times when we feel as though we do need
"Mother Natures sewing machine"

"If it's a broken part,replace it
if it's a broken arm,then brace it
if it's a broken heart,then face it."

Only because I know you don't like people who take pictures of their phones :D

2009-08-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

I wish I could have a You Tube Night (just like ASHLEY!) just about now.
Of SUPERJUNIOR,or SNSD,or actually NIGAHIGA.
To blog hop (stalk) and download random songs from random bands+singers.
Am currently googling "HOW TO BE AN EMCEE",there is,at this moment,NADA SPEECH.

I hope no mishaps tomorrow!
For the sake of the LEO's (AND ME!)

uhoh,I smell trouble.

2009-07-30T22:59:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be a good day,I can feel it. I know it.

Eventhough I don't know nuts about circular measure nor have I finished three (or was it four?) BM essays. It will be.

OH ANGSANA, you just make me smile;
of Mary Poppins,Britney,KimPossible,BootyBouncing,UMBRELLA-ella-ellaaaaa,
BEING "COURAGE",and of split pants.

CUPCAKES,nyahahha yay I can spill cos EnZhen doesn't read my blog.

or so I hope,more details tomorrow.

2009-07-27T16:22:00.001+08:00

mmm. today was such a bore.
Derrick no bonding sesh during CHEMISTRY ):
I feeel funnayh. this is funnayh.

Maybe BM tuition with my "husband" will make it better